♥ WEIWEI

Sigh

2012-01-18T01:19:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm back. Im not very very happy. Even though I should have fun now. But I guess im not.. Hah, a lot of things have cross my mind. & I really feel that do much things are bottling inside me..

I felt that, I've neglect my friends, & I don't know what to do now. Maybe, they will be happier without me. Got the feeling of meeting friends lesser & lesser. Just wanna work work & work all the way. Im better off being alone. Really. I bring so much disappointment to my friends. Who are really close to me.. & I really ain't happy it & myself. Sigh.. I really don't know what to do.

& for my love life, I really don't know what to do. The feeling is different. I felt as if, it's just a 依赖. Because I'm always being loved by my friends, sist & bro.. Maybe I just love the feeling of being loved. I don't know if this feeling is true not. I don't know it will lead me to where. But I hope, I won't hurt the other party. Because I rather I'm the one getting hurt.. I don't put my boyf as priority. Sigh. Except "him". & no one is able to replace the feeling that he have gave. I just don't know what to do now...

Oh god, please help me please. I need you to guild me, teach me the way & advise me on what to do. Sigh. What are you writing on my life story? Can you please let me know? So I can walk the way? Sigh..

2012-01-09T18:17:00.001+08:00

Ok, I'm here to talk about my character. I mean like cause I quarrel with him. & he thinks that it's my wrong as I'm lazy. Well, who doesn't know that I'm plain lazy? Everyone knows that. So don't come & say that ask me to change or not be lazy towards you. Cause this is me. If you're gonna love me, you gonna accept that I'm like this. My sist & bro also know my character. So don't expect me to change for you when they didn't even ask me to do so.

I seriously don't know what's wrong with him nowadays eh. Just small little things I do, he just wanna argue. & he's been treating me coldly nowadays. From what I see in text la. We hardly Sms also already. Well I do wonder sometimes, how long can this relationship last. How happy are we? Hah. Let's see how it goes alright.

I really don't understand guys sometimes. What they are thinking & what they really wants. Because their mind & actions are both doing the different thing. I just don't get it really. I don't need my boyf to sweet talk that much. I don't need him to spend all his time on me. I don't need him to pamper me or what other girls demand. I just want a normal relationship. Who understands me. & who is willing to accept my flaws & still willing to be with me, stay by me when I'm upset. Like today, I got demote, he didn't say much. When I'm really unhappy, he did nothing much.. Sigh. Forget it really. I shall slowly take a step & see how it goes ba..

Fuck my life.

2012-01-09T17:07:00.001+08:00

Kay, I'm back to posting because I'm so upset + angry over school thing. Today happy happy go school , end up I gonna stay back study year 1. Super upset about it. So went to appeal to office. Wednesday gonna talk to the section head. Afraid the answer he/she give will be a bad answer. Sigh. Cause I don't wanna stay in this course studying year 1 again..

&& I don't know what's wrong with you. Picking quarrel with me with little stuff. Even I'm lazy, you also wanna argue. Never mind. Whatever I done, ain't right at all. K fine.

& to you, I didn't reply you. Because I don't agree with the answer you told me for the 5 question. I do have feelings but so? I also can't love anyone else like I love you before. That's it ok? (:

Questions in my mind..

2012-01-07T02:21:00.001+08:00

I'm still having a lot of doubts. A lot of questions. Because there are a lot of question mark in my mind. I know blog will be safe for almost all people now. Because they have thought that it's dead. Well, but I'm still keeping it alive. Hah. So I can throw my troubles out here. & I also know, "you" won't even come & view this blog anymore.. (:

So here's all my questions...

1) I wonder, if you have ever forgotten me? Or ever gave up on me? When I'm still waiting for you..

2) if your answer is no, then why are you in a relationship? Sigh. I know there's no point talking about all this. Because it already ended. But it's all the questions that I wanted to ask..

3) I don't know if I'm able to last with my current one. Because 1stly, I still ain't able to let go. Yet, I accepted him. Though I've feelings for him..

4) I'm a free girl, he's having probation. Will he get tired of me because I'm always running out. & doesn't have time for him. Cause I'm a outgoing girl instead of a inhouse girl..

5) I just wish to be alone again for the time being, but then I know it's impossible... Sighh...

Can anyone answer to this 5 questions? :')

What am I thinking?

2011-12-31T07:33:00.001+08:00

Hi, I'm back to my blog, like a finally. Things are going on fine I guess. Or I would rather say a lot of things had change. Well, after these few days, I've realize my mistake. & yup, I'm gonna change for the better (: 2012 is just a day away. Hah, & I hope it will be a good year for me & everyone else.

You texted me yesterday. I'm surprise. Seriously.. But I doubt you will wanna talk to me anymore when I've told you I got a boyfriend right? Hah. Things had happen before. So I know it will be the same when it comes to you. The date are also 1 day before it. Hah. Such coincident eh. Well, since now I've got a boyfriend. I bet I should really slowly let go as you got a girlfriend too. Be it still together or not. Cause you already have done so (: let's hope the both of us, will stay happy & find our own happiness eh. I wish you luck uh.

The best memories are always inside me, deep in my heart.. You should know it well too.

Well, I'm gonna stop posting & go play my game (:

Hellooooooooo!

2011-12-09T05:31:00.001+08:00

Well, I'm back to my blog! Like a finally uh? I almost forgot my password for my blog. Tsk! Luckily I remembered.

Well, what's going on this few days? I've been working, hanging out at xg & also mahjong. ( looking at people playing mahjong ) lol! Though I'm very tired, but I don't wanna waste my time sleeping at home as holiday are ending soon ): going back to study on the jan of 12 I guess. Tsktsk!

Then what about my love life? It's the same I guess. Nothing much either. Well, guess I've slowly forgotten him. & I might get someone better than him. Ha ha ha! Thought last few weeks, am upset about seeing his Facebook, but I know it's time to end all this as we are already not together for almost a year. So yeah! Be strong alright weiwei (:

I realize, there are a lot of killing, bashing up incident this few month. Why wanna kill, fight among each other? It's so super " lame " la. I mean like, look. Why not spend the time working hard, & after that, when you got your pay, then play hard! (: this is what I think now. Cause money mean the world now! Everything now needs money & the cost of everything including cab are increasing. Seriously, now cab are the vampire. They gonna suck dry our money I guess. Lol!

I guess I gonna head to sleep now. Just posting what I felt only. No offense actually. Heh :/ so good night earthlings ~

I'm back ! (:

2011-06-10T04:03:00.001+08:00

Well , it's been super long since I blog right ? Haha ! So anyone miss me ? (: things are getting better , I guess . As I found a group of true friends with me (: thanks for tolerating all my nonsense , attitude , late-ness , jokes and so many flaws of mine . Well , I admit that i do love this group of kakis . Hehe .

Ahhhhh , and right now , I'm gonna have my 3 weeks holiday ! (Y) it means , time to work and also , play at the same time . Gonna start working on the 19th ): sad die uh ! Well , not that bad after all too , cause it's from 7am - 4pm . And it's at queenstown ! So freaking far eh . But bo bian , gonna work to have money , so I can go out and play ! Strive for the win (:

I hope I didn't flunk my exams man , as I didn't really study ): those that I studied , didn't come out at all , sad right !! Haha , well , at least I put in effort and done my best , just hope that at least I just passed ! And I think I will be glad about it already (: 2nd semester coming up ! So excited eh . Hoho ! But first , I shall enjoy my holiday first .
Plus , I don't intend to get into a rs yet too , as I don't even know how to trust and get to love someone already , everything trust I'd , it's already gone . Haha ! So yeah , just wanna be single all the way and play ba (: take it as I'm single from Jan till now , cause the last one I don't even take him as my boyf before (: haha ! So that means , I'm single for 6 months already ! Well , shall continue to count too . Anyway , I'm gonna head to sleep . So good night blog (: shall post again when I'm free (:

seriously i'm starting to give you up.

2011-03-10T20:49:00.004+08:00

Seriously , don't know what's wrong with guys nowadays . Especially you . You know who you are . Don't need me to say out . I'm not trying to bad mouth , but is because i'm really pissed off with you . Like look , i didn't do anything wrong , and here you are , trying to come and say me and quarrel -.- How old already ? And did you even go get the facts right become coming up to confront me ? No . Storybook also need to read the whole book before understanding the situation luhs . Lmaos . And did i even say i don't give a damn on the presents that you gave me ? If i don't , i wont even have to display them nicely already . Seriously , go trust your friends la . Really see no point in why i mustn't give up on you sial . Till now , i learn to wake up already . been trying to tell myself that , you will change for the better for sure , hahs , but i'm actually lying to myself all along . Knowing that actually you won't even change , know why ? Cause a leopard will never change its spot (:

All the effort seriously wasted , should have heel my friends advice sial . Tsktsk , so i won't have to ended up like this . In this kind of state . Seriously , thanks to you man , i must really be grateful to you . hahs ! All you think of is you are always right , then so be it . You are always right then , i won't even wanna bother to argue with you anymore , you wanna go bitch around me then go ahead only ^^ I don't even wanna care anymore . I don't see a need too why i've to give in to you . When we are like stranger . Even my family i also don't give in , so why must i give in to you ? LOL ! You wanna say i very bossy , attitude problem or whatsoever , then so be it . So what if i'm ? Everyone is different . I ain't like your ex's , whom you treat badly to . Or any others . Really sial , age gap is really a problem , i guess if i find a guy around your age , they will think better than you . And they won't so Gey Gao like you . LOL . If you wanna be so gey gao , then i think i should too . Lol . Cause now your the one who wanna make things ugly . Your the one who wanna make things to the extend till it turn out this way . Your the one who change me to like this . Yeah i admit i do have attitude problems , but so ? Everyone can accept me for who i'm , why can't you ? LOL .

All you think of , is want me to change , then what about you ? You don't have to ? Lying to me over and over again , saying that you will change and all sort of sweet stuff . In the end ? The result is still the same ! Have you ever really thought about me ? Or my feelings . You always say you did , but it seems like you didn't . If you did , you will know why i'm always like this . What i want , and how i feel . All this you won't even know . Do you know sometimes why i get angry ? Is because the way you joke and play . Do you know how i feel at times ? When i jealous , get paranoid , and all sorts of stuff ? You don't know . All you think of is i'm having attitude problem . Trying to climb on your head or even bad mouth you . You think i'm always bad-mouthing you behind my friends back . When i didn't even . If i did , i would have give up you earlier on . And wont hang on till now . Ask around luhs , how many people ask me to give up , and i keep say don't want , there's still chance , you will change and etc . . Go ask around , how many times i've nag to people saying that , i miss you so badly , and i love you still . All this , you will never know . Cause all you think of is me saying you only . So be it . You wanna think this way , then go ahead . Cause what your friend said are right , and what i say is wrong . Okay ? :) It's also the end of us too . So yeah , that's why i decided to rant everything out . And after that , i won't wanna rant anymore . Cause no point already . Good luck to you in finding your new girl and studies . Walk separate ways from now on and each start a new fresh life . You can throw away the pictures and delete photo too . It's all up to you now . Lastly , the last time i'm gonna say , i love you seriously . i've never ever bad mouth you before or tried to spoil your reputation . I do miss you terribly much . . Bye .

All i've to do , is to keep myself busy from now on with studies and work . so that i'll slowly give up on you and forget about you . Even though if i've to overwork and get stress in studies , i'll still do it . And you will never know how much it hurts me , how hard it is to move on alone . The love is so strong , that whenever i start to daze , the image start to flash through my mind . 28th is the best memories , yet the most hurtful one too . . Thanks .

contact me on facebook this few days !

2011-03-10T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone, i'm back to posting . well i don't even know what should i post too . just because i'm bored , so i came to post as i dont wanna neglect my blog . Tomorrow gonna have nafa ! And i ain't going as i'm having a bad cough ! :( so sad right ? haha , well , so didn't went to school today , and went to get mc . The doctor give me 1 days mc and 5 days light duty from pe (Y) ! hahaha , so meaning tomorrow i doesn't have to go for nafa :)) then went home , change all this , and head down to find germaine . Hehe , super long didn't saw her already :( and i reach home at like 11 ! good girl of me uh? Gonna work on friday & saturday already . omg , weekend fly already . sad case . But well , money is much more important right ? hehe . Anyway , for those who wanna contact me this few days , please contact me on facebook alright , dont even text me as my line gonna be cancel on the 10 :( which is tomorrow ! omg . so yeah , anything comment me or send a msg to my facebook ^^ link is : http://www.facebook.com/weiiweii . thanks everyone ^^

well , i don't know why or how . To make myself move on , every thought is all just about you , and memories keep flashing back . Hope when i start working and get busy , i'll slowly get over you . .

back to posting ^^

2011-03-06T23:16:00.002+08:00

well , i realise i didnt update my blog for like super long uh ? and i keep it private too . well . alright , lazy to post so much too as i'm gonna head to bed like super real soon . cause there's school tomorrow ! oh yes . well , holiday pass fast . saturday and sunday were gone just like that :( aww . wish that holiday will be longer ! well , march 16/19 i'm gonna have my 3weeks holiday ! shoik or what uh ?! hehehe . so yeah , gonna work and study hard now . currently gonna work at resort world ^^ so do drop by if your free alright ?! :) been hanging out with gary , germaine or classmate lately . staying up in school to study and yeah , go out of course ! and its also quite long since i saw my ngyaya eh ? :( i do miss you silly girl ! hehe . your crazy girl got so much to say to you !

so how do i schedule my week ? well , every monday - friday study till 5 , then tuesday or wednesday work . and i'm like left with monday to go out . cause thursday - sunday , i'm gonna work ! no more time for friends ! :( super sad uh ! so better meet me out asap if i'm free ! :) gonna be a independent girl from now on . i'm also lazy to go upload picture on blog . but all picture are on facebook ! :) so do add me up uh guys ! angelngweiqin@hotmail.com ! for your info , i just cut bangs ! and it seems like its so ugly :( haha . well , good luck to those studying eh , and those in love life , gonna learn to give and take , and treasure what you have now ^^ cause maybe i don't know how to . and now , i don't even wish to be in a relationship too . hahs ! single might be the best choice too . as i will be busy for studying and working .

gonna sign out now . gonna head to bed . tomorrow lesson at 10 . hope i wont be late . as i'm always late ! its such a bad habit oh god . so nights everyone . i'm gonna public my blog too ! ^^ stay tune for more !

it will soon be over .

2011-01-12T16:27:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to say already . i don't know what to do already . i've nothing much to say already . cause what i've now , it's that we are totally over . what more can i ask or say ? nothing much already . you already have claim and say , '' been sacrificing , do so much . and yet like this . this is my life . take it as i owed to her . :) the loans , i've paid well . '' well . don't you think that , it's like your giving up now ? so be it ba , maybe you've found someone new and attractive ba , whose about your age . maybe it's better for you too . i didnt even show you sympathy or what . sigh . ya you wanna think what about me then so be it ba . i really got nothing to say already . didn't know your so contradicting . seriously . i gave up . its better that i take all the hurt now than dragging it long and hurt longer . i doubt that you will even change for me too . all your sms now to me is also so cold and attitude . so i give back . i dont know what to say already , you dont understand me , and i dont understand you too . maybe we werent meant for each other eh ? well . you got so many girls friend in your fb . so you can get along with them well already .

even thought i know its hard for me now . but then time will do its job for me slowly . good luck to you eh silly . i just really cant bear to & so what if i'm jealous about it ? but you will never even know :) good luck in your studies and your love life . sigh .

chris dairy

2011-01-12T16:25:00.001+08:00

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.

I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."

Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.

Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.

Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.

But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."

We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.

We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.

She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."

With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.

She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"

I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.

Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.

The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.

I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."

She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.

She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

the missing rib

2011-01-12T15:58:00.001+08:00

A girl in love asked her boyfriend.

Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.

Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done.

Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.

Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today

goodbye my love ):

2011-01-02T20:23:00.003+08:00

well , i'm back to single , with no dragging here and there and awhile later patch , i guess we have broke up for a day , and nice date to break up uh ? 1:1:11 . -'- sigh , even though i cant bear to give up the r/s but i know i still have to . like the promise i've made . if we quarrel again , no more chance given already , he also did state his . if i cry again , he will leave me . so yeah . i think its better that we 2 leave each other , so he can find a better girlf . who is 100x better than me :) isnt that what a r/s should do if you want him to be happy ? i dont mind giving up him and let him to others . as long as his next r/s will be better and nice . i shouldnt be in a r/s anymore . i should stay single . i dont know why all my r/s will cock up . none of my r/s last for a year . none of them . sigh . i though he was the one , the one who let me feel so much love . the one i put in my love to . sigh . but then , end up i was the one getting hurt and lie again and again .
he doesnt even feel or understand me . sigh . i dont know why . i'm so lost and confuse now . i tear everynight . without anyone know . now , i've to tear everyday , every few hour . i cant bear to let go . but i know i've to . i wont move my path , i'll stay . because i know . 1 day if i still love him , i wont move to others , 1 day if i still miss him , i wont fall for anyone . all i think of now , is him him him . i wanted so badly to give him a chance back . but i know i will get hurt again . lets see if he change and still wants me not ? maybe by that time , he got someone new ? :') so good luck to you silly boy . no matter what i still love you alright ? sigh , you gave me such beautiful memories , yet also the hurtful memories ..

Love is ...

2010-12-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol.
Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school.
Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. Cheerleader, sexy, and stylish.
Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .
Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric.
Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric.
For she was already attractive enough.
Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care.
Carol wasn't ugly at all.
In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant.
But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't wear spaghetti-straps or tubes.
So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn.
For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl.
While Cathlyn was labeled as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol.

Telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was.
And how dumb she looked.
Which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless.
That's life. Carol never gave up though.
She wanted to prove something to Eric.
She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything.
She studied hard, really hard.
She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her.

But she never forgot Eric.
Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker.
Always with the same words.
'I care for you, and I always will'
Because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.
Eric began to realise.
How dumb he had been.
His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn.
Was flirting with other guys.
He regretted for choosing the wrong girl.

Cathlyn broke up with Eric later.
For she had found a wealthier guy.
Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb.
He went to look for Carol.
He knelt on his knees, and said.
"Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?"
Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise.
She only uttered these words.
"You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one"

Eric felt disappointed.
He didn't understand a word that she said to him.
But they became good friends.
Did everything together.
Eric began to change into someone better.
Because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before.
His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way.
They just accepted him for his looks.
But Carol accepted him for himself .
She changed him.
Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday.
With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school.
She didn't come for a week.
At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family.
Because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them.
But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital.
Saying that Carol was about to die.
She had been suffering from cancer.
But Carol forbade them from telling him.
Because she didn't want Eric to worry about her.
But now that she was about to die.
She wanted to see Eric for the last time.
Eric rushed to the hospital.
When he saw how weak Carol was.
Tears began rushing down his cheeks.
He whispered.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?"
She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.
"You can't leave me!" he said.
"What will I be without you?"
"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed.
He still couldn't accept Carol's death.
He had only spent a month with Carol.

A month. But Carol changed his life in a way.
A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted.
But he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven.
Sometimes We just don't appreciate those people who really care for us.
Until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret.
Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts.
It's better to tell someone how much you love them.
Rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them.
You'll regret Love is. When we fight till the very last minute.
Just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

The silent love .

2010-12-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

From the very Begining, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry, it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

2010-11-26T13:00:00.003+08:00

well , i seriously have nothing much to post on my blog . cause i keep forgetting what i did for the past few days . ah-haha . so , i'm lazy to update my blog already :( well , getting sick again . how nice ah ? last week work 4 days , this week work 2 1/2 days . tsktsk . next week on , no more mc/half day for me :( boo ! i cant wait for dec (Y) from next week on , i must really choing this job . feel like changing job at times , but then , have to wait till jan 1st . or maybe i've already start studying . but maybe will stick to this job . at least its a 2 weeks one time pay . shall see how ba . its still way too early to talk about changing jobs . LOL ! alright , i shall stop talking so much rubbish for now . cause my head gonna burst anytime . so toodles everyone .

and i really hope you can change . if this continue , i doubt we will last . cause everyday like this also will sian one .. sometimes , i just feel that , your way too easily jealous towards my friends . even if they ask me call them , you will like ask in a way like your jealous or you dont like . Lmaos . this is how i feel . i dont know if you know anot . sometimes , i just need my own privacy alright ?

Please click on my nuffnang everyone ! :( a click wont die right ? so be a kind soul and help me click ! do tag and click on my nuffnang uh ! thanks alot guys !

The Ring .

2010-11-26T01:40:00.001+08:00

A girl was sitting on a chair at the gas station she worked at. She looked up and saw her boyfriend walk in. As he was looking at snacks, a man walked in and pointed a gun at her. He had been admiring her ring her boyfriend had given to her as a token of his love. When he asked her to give it to him, she said no. Her boyfriend looked up just in time to see her shot. He ran over to the killer and beat him over the head with a hammer that was for sale. Then he ran and called 911. When the ambulance came, he was sobbing uncontrollably near his girlfriend.

The doctor came over and felt for her pulse. Then he stood up and said she was still alive. Later at the hospital, as he was sitting beside her, he asked"Why didn't you just give him the ring?" and then she softly spoke"Because when you gave it to me, you said it was part of your love for me and I knew if I gave him the ring, I would lose that love." The next day, she was pronounced dead.

Story of regret .

2010-11-26T01:00:00.002+08:00

There was this guy who believed very much in true love and decided to take his time to wait for his right girl to appear . He believed that there would definitely be someone special out there for him , but none came .

Every year at Christmas , his ex-girlfriend would return from Vancouver to look him up . He was aware that she still held some hope of re-kindling the past romance with him . He did not wish to mislead her in any way . So he would always get one of his girl friends to pose as his steady whenever she came back . That went on for several years and each year , the guy would get a different girl to pose as his romantic interest . So whenever the ex-girlfriend came to visit him , she would be led into believing that it was all over between her and the guy . The girl took all those rather well , often trying to casually tease him about his different girlfriends , or so , as it seemed ! In fact , the girl often wept in secret whenever she saw him with another girl , but she was too proud to admit it . Still , every Christmas , she returned , hoping to re-kindle some form of romance . But each time , she returned to Vancouver feeling disappointed .

Finally she decided that she could not play that game any longer . Therefore, she confronted him and professed that after all those years , he was still the only man that she had ever loved . Although the guy knew of her feelings for him , he was still taken back and have never expected her to react that way . He always thought that she would slowly forget about him over time and come to terms that it was all over between them . Although he was touched by her undying love for him and wanted so much to accept her again , he remembered why he rejected her in the first place-she was not the one he wanted . So he hardened his heart and turned her down cruelly . Since then , three years have passed and the girl never return anymore . They never even wrote to each other . The guy went on with his life , still searching for the one but somehow deep inside him , he missed the girl .

On the Christmas of 1995, he went to his friend's party alone . "Hey, how come all alone this year ? Where are all your girlfriends ? What happened to that Vancouver babe who joins you every Christmas ?" , asked one of his friend . He felt warm and comforted by his friend's queries about her , still he just surged on .
Then , he came upon one of his many girlfriends whom he once requested to pose as his steady . He wanted so much to ignore her .. not that he was impolite , but because at that moment , he just didn't feel comfortable with those girlfriends anymore . It was almost like he was being judged by them . The girl saw him and shouted across the floor for him . Unable to avoid her , he went up to acknowledge her .

"Hi ..how are you ? Enjoying the party ?" the girl asked .

"Sure .. yeah!", he replied .
She was slightly tipsy.. must be from the whiskey on her hand. She continued ,
"Why..? Don't you need someone to pose as your girlfriend this year?" Then he answered , "No, there is no need for that anymore..."
Before he can continue , he was interrupted , "Oh yes! Must have found a girlfriend ! You haven't been searching for one for the past years , right ?" The man looked up , as if he has struck gold , his face beamed and looked directly at the drunken girl . He replied , "Yes .. you are right ! I haven't been looking for anyone for the past years ."
With that , the man darted across the floor and out the door , leaving the lady in much bewilderment . He finally realized that he has already found his dream girl , and she was the Vancouver girl all along ! The drunken lady has said something that awoken him .

All along he has found his girl . That was why he did not bother to look further when he realized she was not coming back . It was not any specific girl he was seeking ! It was perfection that he wanted , and yes , perfection !
Relationship is something both parties should work on . Realizing that he had let away someone so important in his life , he decided to call her immediately . His whole mind was flooded with fear . He was afraid that she might have found someone new or no longer had the same feelings anymore .. For once , he felt the fear of losing someone .

As it was Christmas eve , the line was quite hard to get through , especially an overseas call . He tried again and again , never giving up . Finally , he got through , precisely at 1200 midnight . He confessed his love for her and the girl was moved to tears . It seemed that she never got over him ! Even after so long , she was still waiting for him , never giving up .

He was so excited to meet her and to begin his new chapter of their lives . He decided to fly to Vancouver to join her . It was the happiest time of their lives ! But their happy time was short-lived . Two days before he was supposed to fly to Vancouver , he received a call from her father . She had a head-on car collision with a drunken driver . She passed away after 6 hours in a coma .
The guy was devastated , as it was a complete loss . Why did fate played such cruel games with him ? He cursed the heaven for taking her away from him , denying even one last look at her ! How cruel he cursed ! How he damned the Gods . How he hated himself , for taking so long to realize his mistake ! That was in 1996 .

The moral of this story is :
Treasure what you have .
Time is too slow for those who wait ;
Too swift for those who fear ;
Too long for those who grief ;
Too short for those who rejoice ;
But for those who love .
Time is Eternity .

For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime. You may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

follow your heart :)

2010-11-26T00:30:00.000+08:00

Billy loved Katie with all his heart . But he never told a Single soul . Katie secretly loved him too . But she thought she would never have a chance with him . Billy asked his friends what they think of her and his friends thought she was gay . They didn't like her at all . So Billy just went along with them . They all made fun of her and made her feel really bad . Katie was so upset .

One day they followed her home from school making fun of her the whole way home . Once she got inside her house she dropped to the floor cringe . She had a crush on Billy since 3rd grade . She didn't know what to do . When Billy got home he felt real bad about what he had done . So he decided to go to Katie's house to tell her he was sorry and that he really loves her .

When he got there he knocked on the door no one answered .

The door was open so he walked in . He walked into the living room and found Katie lying dead on the floor . She had slit her wrists . Billy was so upset . He knew it was his fault she killed her self . And now he could never tell her how he really felt .

The lesson of this story is : Don't wait to until the last minute to tell someone how you really feel . Because it just might be too late . And don't always go by what your friends say , follow your heart .

its you who make me know what love is :)

2010-10-21T20:46:00.011+08:00

hi all ! lots of apologise to everyone . for neglecting my blog ): well , i'm here to blog for the past don't.know.how.many.days/months stuff :) so yeah . wont elaborate much over here . cause i've got so much to blog . i still haven't got my pulau ubin picture :( so i'm still waiting .

well , during my birthday , thanks bby for the things that you did for me :) and the cute little turtle you gave me ! hehe . super heartwarming sial that day + super sweet ! hehe . i like and thanks so much bby ;luv ! then after that , i forgot what happen alr . LOL !
aint he sweet ? haha , specially come down to my house here to make all this . and its exactly 12am on oct 5 ! hehe . i seriously do love my bbyboy super much , no matter how many quarrels we both had . i'll still love him the same :)
well , after that , this is with bby , gary , and sweetheart ! meet sh over at my place . and then go over to arab street for sheesha ! but she doesnt like it . tsktsk . and it cost us $23 plus ! super ex i swear :( play over there and chat , and then slack for like 2 hour . after that , head down to bedok inter the pasa malum ! :) hahaha , super miss my bitch alot !!!!!! like super long didnt saw her luhs . hahaha .
went to bi , then after that , brought food and drinks . then chill out . haha . then camwhore ! (Y)
seriously miss her so much luhs ! and then did went to interview on that day to fareast , but its so super disappointing :( after that , bus back to bby place . hehe . stay with bby for the past few days , and now i'm missing him already !! omg .
and i've to thanks wifey , for the belated birthday present . hehe . went to meet her at pr . then after that , head down to bq there drink . play dice and drink . overall , fun day still :) hahaha . thanks wifey ! love you too ! heading out tomorrow morning , to my aunt place , afternoon gonna come back tamp to meet bby and ahdi . cause going job interview . tsktsk . night have to go celebrate jie's birthday . super busy tomorrow sial :( Booooooo ! but sat and sunday , confirm sian + no place go :( so that's all yeah ? wait till i got my ubin photo , then i shall blog again :) anyone got any job , please do contact me alright ?! 82826563 :) thanks !
and oh ya . do be good enough to click on my nuffnang ! :) hmm . and do tagggggggggg ! hehe . am heading to play dota already with bby and ahdi ! byebye all , and do contact me uh if anyone got jobs !

happy belated 2nd monthsary bbyboy :)

2010-10-01T01:32:00.003+08:00

well , i know i neglect my blog damn badly . but then i still do visit my blog alright ?! hahs . but much more active in twitter and facebook . so yeah . and peeps ! do click on my nuffnang luhs :(

well , firstly i wanna say , happy belated 2nd monthsary babyboy :3 hahaha , iloveyou super lots alright ? haha , even though our quarrels may make us look like we are tearing apart . but our heart still stick as one right ? hehe . so yeah , no matter what , i still love you as much as i do alright ? silly bby .

hmm , birthday coming soon too . hahs . doubt that i'm celebrating yeah ? hahs , butbutbut , my silly bitch of mine promise to celebrate it for me after her eoy exams ! hahaha , that's adeline tyl , so super sweet of her right ? hahaha , but she's being a bitch to forget my birthday :( 15 more days and she'll help me celebrate . eew . but at least she still got the heart :) love her maxie too !

so on my actual date , where should i go ? i dont know too . stay at home ? hahaha . lets just see how on that day ba . no point talking now too . cause its still 4 days away and i'll become 19 :( Boooo ! wish i can stay at this age and not move to the age of 20 .. LOL . well . shall head to nua awhile and wait for bby to come back . just blog for the sake of blogging nia . LOL ! and i gonna start to do jie blogshop already ! :( no time left ! bye everyone ! remember to click on the nuffnang ah !

i ain't perfect :)

2010-09-08T13:29:00.014+08:00

well , there's so much things i wanna blog . omg . hahaha . like the 28 august , 4-5 september and yesterday !! hahaha , been neglecting my blog recently , cause of one word ; lazy :) LOL ! so shall just elebrate on what i did this 3-4 days ba ?

28 august ; went to meet bby at dont know what time , cause i've forgotten , ohh , remember , was working at first , till 7 plus , head to vivo . eat and then after that , wanted to go home . but there aint enough time . so we head down to suntec for the singapore flyers :)

reach there at about 9 plus ? haha , then after that , went in and look at the sence . was beautiful i swear . hahaha . chat and took pic inside there . LOL . and about 10.15 , the thing end cause it was a 30 min ride :)

alight and then took a mrt back home , cause i wanna bathe and change , so do bby :) so went home , bathe and change , and i couldnt find any clothes , and i wear the blue shirt thought was ugly . HAHAHA , so nua till 12 . and end up no more train .

then after that , bby came over find me first and then we cab to cine there , wanted to watch step up 3 on that day , but the seats were like .... so didnt watch . and then went to find sotplug wifey , as she down in the mood :( and we play dice and drink . LOL . at first was fun , but the end , its like shit -.-

some stuff happen , so shall not talk about it already , yeah , from that day on , i know who are my friends and who's not :) thanks ah mofo's . hahaha ! then morning 7 went home ,

4-5 september ; went to celebrate mosa birthday , so meet them at tamp and we took the shuttle bus to sentosa . LOL . reach there like 4 ? then watch them play volley ball . LOL ! and then after that , they smash floor on mosa . LOL . poor boy . then after that , nua there till like 6+ 7pm . and then we went to take the shuttle bus back to tamp . reach there , rot over there and eat . after that caught the movie " the expandables " nice show ! hahaha . then after that went bby house and watch step up 1&2 . and i'm lazy to eleborate already . cause there's no picture on this !! hahaha .

7 september ; went out at 10 to meet elysia baby . then meet her at outram mrt and we train down to chinatown for interview . hahaha , super long didnt meet her already . and i miss her :) reach there , went for the interview , and we walk to the big market to mom .

after mom-ing , went to see clothes . hahahaha , she was nagging about i should wear this and that . hahaha . then after that , see see see till we wanted to head down to bugis , cause wanna go the 4BL there pray . so head down to bugis . and then there's this facial shop who keep ask us buy and dont wanna let us off . LOL . funny max .

then head to 4BL and pray , after that , went to the fortune teller there . cause i dont know how to read . LOL ! and then after that , smoke at bugis street nearby , tio hsa . how sway :( LOL ! and then train back to bedok and then wait for adeline to come meet me ! nua till 6-6+ , brought cookie down , and play till 7 plus , and go to tamp to have frolicks :)

reach there , eat , slack and play . after that , went to puff and watch shows on youtube . disgusting luhs . then after that , pei adeline wait for bus and then walk to bby house there and bus home after that :) and homesweethome ! ilove my baby adeline and bby boy !

marina barrage

2010-08-25T18:52:00.006+08:00

well , its been days/weeks since i blog right ? haha . so here i am . coming back to blog . in case my blog rot again . where am i the last few days eh ? well . i shall start from sat ba . cause i forgot where i go already actually . sat , went to meet wifey at bedok inter . then after that , head to tamp for frolicks .

after that , daddy ask me go back bedok to meet him cause i wanna take money . LOL . then went home . saw him there . after that , went off . and i actually did forget him birthday :( feel so bad and guilty , but i did text him and wish him okie :) haha . then went up the cab and then go bedok inter .

wanted to meet bibi but he fall asleep . then after that , we straight cab to marina barrage ? cause its like going 7 ? then went up the cab , the uncle like dont know the way . so the both of us are being so retarded to look at the iphone maps . LOL .

then after that , call jiefu and ask . then finally . reach there . alight and we walk our way in . its been so super long since i step in there . like 1234567 years eh . and i do enjoy the breeze and scenarios over there . and then saw lots of kites too !then about 9 , we went off cause its like drizzling . then went out to wait cab , but there's no cab . like so fuck up . stood there for 45 min , and finally there's a cab . then wanted to eat kfc . but then its close ! so went to bedok inter . then went to eat carrot cake . LOL . and head to mac .

saw xiaolong di and his friends . then slack till 12 + , went to era . and then 3 plus , bibi came over . and we slack at mac till 6 . like ..... luhs . super bored that night i swear , cause there's nothing to do . after that cab home . and hsh .

yesterday , went to era . as its the last day already :( super sad eh , that era closing . tsktsk . so much memories are in there uh ? like how i know all these friends , and how i know those bitch of mine . so many stuff . haha . too bad , it have to be close down . %@!$!%^@ so yeah , still can contact and meet out anyway . LOL . just that lose one slacking place only ! LOL . i'm sort of like lazy to post now . so that's all :) blog other days .

:( bad day

2010-08-15T22:53:00.007+08:00

well , yesterday was a bad bad day i swear ! i'm here to complain cause seriously i never been so unlucky before :( which spoilt my day totally . went to plaza sing at 5+ andmeet pluggy , walk pass cube cause have to go ps . then saw alot of people . then went to ps taxi stand wait for wife . reach , and then went to grand cathy . eat and went to get wife stuff , walk the whole ps . and didnt intend to saw any friends around there . but end up . did . then about 8+ . cab to cini , cause last min wanna watch movie . then caught the show '' the last airbender'' nice show indeed :) haha !but then there's different part . then brought the ticket , and then went to ion . walk to artbook and get wifey stuff . then after that , went to meet bby :) then rot till 12 , cab to cini . after that , got some misunderstanding . but after that , okay already . then 2.30am , went to watch the show . till 4.15 . slack outside cini and chat with wifey . saw lots of people at cini luhs . like omg . LOL ! after that , 5 plus , cab home . wanna get in the cab that time , my leg knock against the door . fucking pain luhs :( then slack awhile under my house downstair with bby then hsh :)
anyway bby , thanks for your tolerance and patient alright ? iloveyou so much !

being sick is suckish .

2010-08-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

well , finally here to blog . spiderwebs are around uhh ? hahaha , wasn't able to blog last few day . cause was terribly sick man . gosh . like sick for 4 days ? so eew ~ hahaha . so finally here to blog as my fever is gone !!! hehe . went to tamp earlier on , to meet silly and co . wanted to catch a movie . but then end up didnt . LOL ! tomorrow ba i guess ? haha . i actually also dont know what to blog . cause as i've got nothing to blog about eh ? hmm . just here to blog for the sake of not letting the blog rot . LOL ! wellwell . i do miss all my friends last time , those that i've drifted , or what so ever . hahs . but its true that everyone change . people do change , but it depend on how much time it takes . hmm . i seriously got nothing to post already eh . zzz . so shall stop my blog here ba . do tag and click on my nuffnang alright ?! be kind thanks ! :) will blog other time with stuff and pictures :)

tired from 10 days work

2010-07-27T04:11:00.004+08:00

well , its almost 2 week since i've blog , been so busy and tired from working . haha ! finally have a break now after my 10 days of working at clarke quay for the singapore food festival . was tiring at first , plus bored , cause i dont know anyone there except my kor . so yeah . 1st day of work was a mess . suppose to reach at 12 , but got a job interview at yaya company in the morning . then after that , kor came to fetch me as i dont know how to go out + hate the sun and heels ! make my leg got lots of blister + pain :( then reach home , nua awhile and then head out , went to 211 , and eat . and was late for work . reach work place . things got abit cock up . and the time pass very slow . actually was suppose to work at the merlion there one , to sell cookie/biscuit i think , then in the end , dont know how to go + late , = work as surveyors . LOL ! still okay luhs . talk to those tourist . plus nice hanging out at the food street . slowly know different people . and start to talk . haha ! and time seems to pass faster each day .and yesterday was my last day of work :( and i reach home at 5+ in the morning i think . cause have to close down and pack things up . sibei tiring man i swear , and my whole body now still aching :( especially my right hand . sigh , damn pain too ! carry lots of stuff and pack here and there . even injury my leg alittle . haha . wanted to go eat but was too tired . so me , jk and simon went to take a cab . and thanks silly for sending me back first (: head home and k.o ~

later on , have to go to the office and pass the cab receipt . then head down to raffles for the fruit bar interview :) (Y) ! and gonna head to sleep soon as i promise someone i'll go sleep soon :) so yeah , will blog some other time eh ! click on my nuffnang and do leave a tag !

2010-07-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

well , i dont know what to put for the tittle , so i didnt put , shall leave it . as i really got nothing to post . just to keep my blog alive nia . well . been either at home these few days , or go out awhile nia . tsktsk . rotting at home during weekdays . like so bored , shall get a job in week days , and weekend go out play :) just nice uhh ? hahs ! i really dont know what to blog eh , anyway , tag more often and click on my nuffnang peeps ! will blog real soon . with pics bahs ! :) stay tuned !

what's sister/brothership ?

2010-07-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

yeah , what's sister/brothership ? so what if we know each other for like 8 years ? so what if you are my sister for 8 years ? but in your heart , if you dont treat me as 1 , it doesnt matter at all . cause this aint sistership . a true sistership will call you or text you at times , even a sms/call dont take you long , or meet up when free . even if you are so busy , you really treat him/her as a sister/brother , you sure will find a free time and meet for awhile right ? so are you doing this ? no . both sister of mine , and yet , both characteristic are so different . yeah , maybe cause she's same surname as me , more close to me than you . that's why ba . yeah , i can say it straight in your face . i prefer yaya more than you . i can say i treat her as a sister more . why ? because when she think of me or what , she will give me a call/sms . if not will jio me out when she's free . what about you ? free meet other friends only eh ? and dont even bothered about us ? eh what kind of sister is this ? yeah , a grow up girl shouldnt talk to a havent grow up girl [: and i didnt call ? last time i also got call . but did you ever call ? no . i also know what you're doing and hang out with who . not that i dont know . not only you can check on me . i also can . you more then dont know me or understand me . have you ever try to call me out and talk ? no . have you ever been there for me when i need someone ? no . ... See Morehave you ever treat me as a sist ? no . all is NONONO ! ya , she's much more better than you , i can say . seriously . you got the time , you rather meet other friends than us . so be it then . say whatever you wanna say , i give up alright ? take it as my fault , my bloody fault uhh [: you are the most clever and mature one , okay ? and i dont need yaya then i can survive or get a job . i know what is i.n.d.e.p.e.n.d.e.n.t , understand ? i dont care if you will come over to read my blog or not . cause i aint gonna keep my mouth shut already . and give anyone bully or kan .

i dont know what's wrong with me now adays , its me or other people ? maybe something wrong with other people too . mental problem sial . trying to control my mood , but then it seems like its worst . i really dont know how long can i take it sial . sigh . somehow i know i'm breaking apart soon . still life goes on , even if i break down so what ? life still have to go on what . right ? sigh , i hope , i wish , i'm someone who is stressfree , relax , and happy go lucky . maybe like the old me ? who always laugh , and wont dulan . sigh , or i wish i could return to a kid ? hais . i do miss everything in the past . how much my family pamper me , especially my grandma . but now ... hais . sometimes i feel that i'm being so unfinial . really . now she's like that , i didnt have time to visit her . sigh . argh , who will know the pain in me ? no one . who will know what i'm thinking ? no one , who will know what i want ? none . sigh . argh , i dont know what i wanna say already , tired . tired of every single things now . :')

memories are only to remember .

2010-07-05T15:44:00.006+08:00

well , here to blog , as my blog is like dying man . omg . tsktsk . why i state my tittle like this , cause i suddenly think back of the past . when that time the whole group of us hang out at era . play audi and chiong fam point ? slack there . play around .

well , those memories are the best . seriously . still remember everything from the start like how i know this group or friends , and then how we become good friends/best friend . and so many more . how we disturb each other , how we celebrate each other birthday , how we prank around , and walk to ecp . all sorts of stuff . kinda think of it , it do make me smile . haha . but then , that was the memories , and memories are only allow to remember and sometimes for us to think back . no way we can step into those memories again . even if we can step into memories , it will be different from last time too . cause things do change . for the better or for the worst . so yeah . if things are meant to be back like last time , it will be . for example like in a r/s , if he/she is meant to be your , it will return to you someday . hahs . so yeah . well , enough of all these stuff already . some are in the picture , some aint , and yeah , i do miss every single one of you all . [: its deep from my heart eh ? no bluff okie !

been hanging at tamp these 2 days . singapore is really a very boring place man . howhowhow ?! end of year , i wanna head to malaysia bahs . bored of singapore already siol . so small and every places already been to . sigh . is there any place that wont get bored ? hahs . argh , going mad soon , everytime there's nothing for me to do . beening alittle paranoid these few days too . dont know what's wrong with me too . so yeah , sorry if i did attitude anyone alright ?! having so much stuff to think i think . that's why getting paranoid . tsk . sometimes , i wish i was born smart , clever , and rich . how cool will that be eh ? HAHA . well . its not possible luhs . hmm . seriously i've got nothing to post already . so end of blog ! tag more and click on my nuffnang !! thanks :)

moodless ):

2010-07-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

sigh , i'm being so moodless right now . can anyone tell me what to do ? seriously , i feel like crying right now at this moment . i dont know why either , why i keep having moodswing this few days ? sigh , i really dont know . feel like ending everything now . my life just seriously sucks ! and i really hate my life . sometime , somehow , i wish i've no troubles , no stress , no sadness , no moodswing , or everything bad . i want to be happy , and everything good . sigh . i do have alot of stuff in my mind , alot of stuff to think . path to choose . and all this aint good at all . yeah , putting a fake smile aint good at all seriously , who knows deep in my heart , how i feel ? no one ever know . even i also dont really know . i dont know what i want , what i think too . being alone , i think it will be better . friends ? what's friends ? family , what's family ? hahs , i think i'm going insane soon . someone please burst my head for me ? [: 我的心真的很辛苦！我很想大哭一场！hais , will life get better ? or its gonna be worst ? no one knows . am i happy or not ? no one knows too [: continue putting a smile infront bahs , that's the only thing i can do . dont want people to worried for me or what too . sigh . maybe i should private my blog eh ? hahs . i've.nothing.to.say.already. end of post . i just wish to know what's people thinking and they know what i'm thinking too .

and , sorry silly , i really didnt know that you got call me just now . i didnt mean to ignore you or what . maybe cause i'm talking on the phone . sigh , you feel better than tell me bahs . i'm sorry . ;sigh .

no one is perfect in the world [:

2010-07-01T01:50:00.002+08:00

well , why i say no one is perfect in the world ? cause if everyone is perfect in the world , there wont be ups and downs for us to go through already . everyone is special , but aint perfect [: if not why god will make this world , and create us ? right ?! hahs , so yeah .
i dont know what to blog actually , i'm just blogging for the sake of not having spiderwebs on my blog . as its like 3 day , 1 post . even though my blog is like dead ? when no one come visit . got is got , 1 or 2 only luhs . but then . at least i still will post . till i'm bored of blog , then i should just close my blog ? [:
have a funny chat with my babyade yesterday on fb , and rice and ahdi [: haha ! R21 chat . gosh . and it has about 250 comments ? LOL ! like wth luhs . haha ! been staying at home this 2-3 days . getting bored already , since school holidays start , i've to rot at home . as so many friends of mine are studying . argh ! but today went to era , for like a few hour . went there to meet mark , marie , jj and so many more . HAHA , its been a long time since i saw them eh ? miss them so much . sometimes , i do miss the past , like those friends i've hang out with ? even though its different group , but then i still miss them all so much , those fun and laughter , enjoyments , pranks and so much more . haha . but now . it seems like we've all drifted . sigh , maybe its good for everyone ? to lead a new life ? who knows ? [:
so many things i still wanna say , but some stuff are not meant to be said here . maybe i should just keep it to myself . haha ! cause i know some people might read my blog . not some , most people read and dont tag only . not refering to my friends . so yeah , dont worry . haha . just some stuff maybe not meant to be say here bahs . anyway , shall blog other time , cause i really dont know what to blog . and please please please do click on my nuffnang ! a click per day wont kill you right ? be kind and sweet eh ! :) thanks !

-Life is a dream for the wise, a game for the fool, a comedy for the rich, a tragedy for the poor.
-Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself.
-The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it.
-While there's life, there's hope.

i'm bored of singapore ):

2010-06-27T22:19:00.006+08:00

well , back to posting , hmm . i'm abit lazy to post already sial . tsktsk ! gonna cut short of the blog post uhh . so didnt really update all [:

that day on the 24 ah , went to ph with felicia , sotplug and devil . pluggy and devil came over my house first , then after that go near 85 there meet felicia , cause she wanna do her bloody hair . LOL ! after that , head to inter , cause i wanna change my stupid heels , cause that heel damn bloody high , and get my belt , after that , cab down to ph . sit there for like dont.know.how.many.hour . like 1 hour plus ? cause waiting for felicia to get her ticket . damn long luhs ! then after that , 11 like that or 11 plus , went to line up and queue in . then after that , saw rainbow , kenny , bunbun , and yirong there too . saw alot of familiar faces too ! etc , joyi , iva , kele , kira , and many more ! like omg , then after that , went out of ph there to find someone , and then smoke and come in . then after that , wait for the re entry till dulan , damn fucking long luhs , walan eh . after that , mood wasnt good , cause am in heels , wait for the re entry till damn long , hungry + leg pain . so all this add up = spoilt mood ! LOL ! then find a place and sit , then got a indian guy came over and talk to me , so annoying , as i cant hear what he say too . LOL ! after that , 3 like that or 3+ , leave as its ending already . sit outside and thinking of where to go , then got on a cab and head to compasspoint eat . and then hsh after that ~
25 went to tamp at 8 plus to find sh , then after that , puff and h2h talk . its been so long since i sit down with her and h2h talk already . miss the past too eh ? HAHA , then talk alot . haha , then after that , went to kr toilet as she aint feeling well . 12 send sh to take bus , and then wait for junkai to come over , after that , go fishing i think , i forgotten . LOL ! haha , then i know is morning go back ah . LOL ! i'm getting so STM x.x

yesterday , went out at 11 plus , wanted to rush for last bus to tampiness , then after that zhixian call and then came over fetch me . thanks alot ah ! haha , then went tamp and find junkai and co . then after that , sit at the void deck there , slack , play cards , talk . then can sit there for like 12 hour man ! wtf . i broke my record , 1st time sit at void deck for 12 hour , LOL half day sial ! ... then after that , after 12 went to take bus , go home jitao K.O ~ haha . so damn frigging tired luhs . then sleep . woke at 8+ . only get to sleep for 8 hour plus , later going back sleep . tsk . gonna change my life back to morning , sian of night life le . thought it's cooling and fun , but then bored x.x tsk ! okay luhs , blog other days [:

true friendship [:

2010-06-24T04:37:00.003+08:00

well , back to blog . like finally uhh ? went to meet laopo yesterday , she cab over find me , how sweet is it eh ? went down fetch her , bring her up my house and i went to prepare . then after that , head out , cab to iluma , brought dress . heng the shop didnt close or we both gonna slap ourself man . LOL ! then wait for junkai and simon to come down . and i thought he really bring 7 people down . in the end , there's only the 2 of them . LOL ! then wifey complain that her stuff were heavy , and she wanna cab home put her stuff and go out . then cab to tpy , and then to tamp to meet mosa . then slack there , then talk to B on phone . and some stuff happen . LOL ! only wifey know eh ? -secret- then after that , was kinda pissed off too . then after that , went to east coast . head there , went to prawn . and for the whole 3 hour , there's 0 prawn . how sway of us right ?! fuck up sial . morning 6+ went off and head to take cab . reach home , KO ~ LOL . mood wasnt so good that night , tsk . cause of some stuff , wifey and i know only [:

anyway wifey , thanks so much for that night , for everything . we know each other for like 1 year + going 2 years already right ? thanks so much for being there for me , those advise , help and many more . even though we been through many ups and down , quarrels , we are still back together again , as close friend/wifey [: emotions cant explain how much i treasure this friendship , but then i know deep down in me , i do really treasure you as a friend alot alot . cause no matter what , you will always be there for me . i still remember the first time , i cry at dont know where . after the job thingy with vance they all . you're there for me . and so many stuff . HAHA . so thanks alot [: i love you wifey ! and dont sad already okay ? i'm here for you 24/7 for sure . learn to smile and cheer up often !

true friends are hard to find , so choose your friends wisely . not everyone are the same . cause you cant judge the book by its cover [: now i know who are my true friends . and thanks for those people who are with me this few days .

much ♥ to my sweetheart [:

2010-06-22T16:07:00.002+08:00

hoho ! am here posting , like finally right ?! blog so dead too . its been like a week since i update my blog ! what have i done for this whole week ? either is go tamp , or stay at home . getting bored already ): but then , is i'm getting bored of my life without $ ! tsk , so i wanna get a job soon ! by this week if they didnt call , means my job fail ): but gonna go interview the other one this friday , what logistic assistant . lmaos . hope i can get a job soon ba ): please ! well , cut short , cause am heading down to meet my wifey and his sist at tamp later on . gawd ! all the way this week like tamp tamp tamp . tsk .

yesterday went out at 8 , then went over to meet junkai first at the playground there . then head over take bus to tamp . cause meet sh at tamp . reach tamp , walk to the near t1 there to find her . then after that , pei her to get the frolicks , cause she's craving for it , but i'm not ): dont know why , maybe cause too hungry . then after that , went to find a sit , sit there , suddenly i craving for bubble tea , so went to buy , and she brought the what green apple green tea . OMG , taste like indian flower x.x LOL ! but still okay luhs . haha ! then sit there , then the junkai and simon went to the what chicken fastfood . then me and sh went to buy ciggy and smoke , and here's a story ; '' i went in and queue in the line , got this woman came and bang me and cut my queue , she wear till like those high class people , but to me , she's just a low class people who just like to cut people queue , then i kp at there about it , and she can pretent not to listen x.x '' walao . seriously there's such people in this society sial . ask them fk off and die sua ? -.- then went to smoke , and then after that , walk to inter there to find the 2 guys , then after that , walk to the end of inter that , sit there slack awhile cause sh gonna go home , then pei her awhile more and send her to take bus . took 2 pic but she only upload 1 ! tsk , finally after waiting for so long , her bus reach . then give her a hug and off i go . walk to dont know where , like damn far luhs , then meet his bro already then walk again . oh ya , i remember . walk dao last time i work the place there , bloody job x.x then after that , slack awhile then bus to inter again . then meet another friend and then walk over again . LOL ! like so ..... hahs ! then after that , sit at a block downstair , then after that home . then use com awhile and head to sleep like 3+ . and i sleep till just now 3 [: maybe cause too tired . LOL ! heading out later on . tsk . so bye bloggy ! remember to click on my nuffnang and tag on my tagboard !

hohohoho

2010-06-18T13:21:00.002+08:00

well , i'm back to post . feeling so much better and now i'm gonna chill on my ice-cream ! hoho ! after 3 days , finally feel so much better ! tsktsk . alright , maybe later i shall head out , then after that , evening gonna call yaya and sasa . then after that , night might be heading down to drink . woot ! shoik . tsktsk ! alright , actually nothing much to blog too . hahs !

went to meet ahdi at 1 plus am . then slack and smoke , and drink the coke with salt . tsktsk , my taste bud yesterday wasnt good . LOL ! then after that . eat a few stick of fries ! and smoke and went home . and was texting with someone about material . LOL ! laughing out loud siol . keep thinking of what material can i say . LOL ! funny to the max sial . then reach home , dota till 7 , then go off to sleep . just now 1 wake up le ): slept only for like 5 hour + siol ! tsktsk . its okay ! gonna chill on my ice-cream now ! tadas , blog tomorrow or what :D

):

2010-06-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

sigh , i'm still so sick . howhowhow ?! and the job interview was postpone till tomorrow , but now i'm still sick , waiting for him to reply if i can postpone till sat , at least i'll be much better mahs . hmm , been sleeping all along , wake , go back sleep again , feeling so cold too ): body ache till very xinku , headache , sorethroat , fever . hmm . seriously fuckmylife sial ): and i've not been going out for 2 days + going 3 days already ): walao , i'm like so god damn bored luhs _l_ ! sigh , not in the mood to blog , body ache dao abit moodswing . tsk !

love quote

2010-06-17T05:01:00.002+08:00

Love and relationships are truly one of the most paradoxical aspects of being human. For it is in love that we find the greatest of strengths and the deepest of sorrows. Love can seem to be so fleeting and unachievable yet it remains well within our reach if we only learn how to embrace it's power. To experience true love, we must be willing to open ourselves up and sacrifice part of our heart and part of our soul. We must be willing to give of ourselves freely, and we must be willing to suffer. It is only when we expose our inner selves to the white hot flame of rejection, that love can burn so brightly as to join to souls, melding the two into one, creating a bond that joins forever. It is from this bond that we draw strength eternal and power ever lasting. It is in this thing that we call love that we find the means to achieve greatness, both in ourselves and in our lives.

it's quite true eh ? hmm .
anyway , i'm bored now . anyone wanna text with me ? ): phone is so quiet , no text no call . bored !

sick + paranoid + moodless ):

2010-06-17T04:11:00.006+08:00

well , i'm here to post those picture that i took with my bitches on 13 june ! and now , currently blogging cause i'm sick . damn it . maybe because was drench in the rain just now for the job interview thingy ):sad case , tomorrow still have the other interview at changi south , but i cant go . as am so sick now . sigh ! and , i really dont know what to say too . feeling so mix up now . never mind me . dont care me bahs , anyway , saw baolun kor just now . and jim saw me too and he call me . cause i went to inter to eat . tsktsk ! nothing much to post too . as i'm being so paranoid now . argh ! upload the picture sua . lazy to post all . cause anyway , fel blog and drea blog also got . argh , moodless ):

Sorry

2010-06-16T15:29:00.001+08:00

I'm here to say sorry to that someone who have to tong till today morning and pei me go interview . And he have to bomb me up ; 40 miss call . And I still gl him just now . Beat him also . Sorry uhh . Hmm . I know you are joking about what you say just now . But seriously I do feel bad about it . Sorry sorry sorry .

i need a job soon !

2010-06-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

well . currently now at this time i should be sleeping instead of blogging , cause am having a job interview tomorrow ! and yet , i cant sleep . can someone tell me what to do ? sigh . awhile more then head to sleep bahs . tsktsk !

am happy that i finally have a job interview again . tsk . have not been working for like a month + already . and now . hope that i can get to work again . bored of slacking too . maybe shall find a part time job too . the company LFI , quite slack too . just gonna pull people in nia . O.O still on consideration too . not too sure about it eh . well , where did i go for the past few days ah ? hmm , oh ya , yesterday went to baolun kor chalet . so met up with some old friends , and slack over there for like 2 hour + ? drink a cup of chivas , which i hate the most . tsktsk , and ew . puff and decided to go off , cause it's 2+ am . hmm , then after that , junkai came over to find me and head over tamp to meet someone . then slack till 4 + , walk to tamp inter , and then wait till 6 + i think , bus home , reach home jitao feel like sleeping , then after that , prepare and head out to meet ahdi for swimming , was like so tired , seriously ! head out , and it rain . tmd . then went to eat breakfast , puff and head home sleep .

sleep till 3+ , got woke by those construction people . bang here and there , slam here and there . tmd . then wake , text ahdi , junkai and yaya . then after that , nua till 5.30pm , meet ahdi and went for a swim . swim till 8 went to bathe and change , then walk to 122 there eat . after eating , meet yaya at her house downstair , and she bring her dog down , sit at playground , slack and puff , then the dog keep lick ahdi and like fucking him . then after that , i tio also . tmd . sit far away from that dog . then 10 plus , head home . nua at bed just now . but couldn't sleep . so decided to blog awhile . before heading to sleep . tsktsk . and also cut short of the story too . lazy post so much ! tsktsk . now on phone with B , cause he asking me to go out . LOL .

a new start , a new life . everything so brand new . [: thanks for everyone whose there for me too for the past few days . especially ; yaya , ahdi , sotplug , junkai , drea , fel . thanks !

lost of word .

2010-06-14T16:46:00.002+08:00

well , back to blog , currently eating my ice-cream and milky . hmm , i dont know what should i blog eh , yeah , blog past 2 days stuff bahs ,

12 june ;
went to cube to meet sotplug laopo , after that , head down to the safra there , cause there no train or any other bus le . so too bus 65 to tamp there , then after that , meet up with junkai over there , then after that , head to bedok , then saw xinyi , LOL ! after that , to bedok jetty . then went there to shan shan xin too . cause quarrel with family on that day mahs , then after that , fish over there , after like 3 hour + 4 , then i got a fish , pathetic 1 fish nia -.- LOL ! at least i still caught , so yeah . but someone caught 1 more after that ! tsktsk . idiot . so yeah , reach home about 8 ? then after that , head to sleep . got woke by daddy at 2+ . cause he came back home just to kpkb me . fine , give him kpkb for almost a hour , then after that , head back to sleep . from 3+ sleep till 9 .

13 june ;
wake up . after that , was nua-ing , + texting with friends . then drea and fel call . and ask me go down era . then after that was still considering . then go prepare . and head out . went to ecp first . meet up with them , saw that group of people . then sit with mel and co nia . didnt really go bothered about them . then after that , head down to era . on com , play audi awhile . then after that , dota . team with mel and co , fel and me . then the other team is drea , hao and co . both round , i die like 7 times . tsktsk . then after that , mood wasnt that good too . cause of some issue . tsk . then after that , morning 7 , cab back home , thanks bitch for sending me back :D then reach home , K.O ! and just now , 3 wake up . sleep for like 6 hour nia . cause of the annoying phone call . from the job thingy . but still get up and answer the call [: later on heading to pasir ris there bahs , my kor birthday ! tsk . aint staying there for long bahs , hahs ! gonna lie back down in my bed . tired still . hais , dont know why my mood super random too . sigh , temper aint really good now . control ! x.x

will upload those pic one i recieve from my bitch !

Hate my family & myself ):

2010-06-13T07:44:00.001+08:00

I don't know why , to have such a family . Seriously . Quarrel with aunt yesterday very badly . Sigh . Just because she bloody don't wanna lend me 30 bucks . Like so wtf luhs . Hais . Sometimes I do wonder . Am I really from this family ? Or not ? I doubt so too . Cause the way they treat me . Like my dad . Did he do his part as my daddy ? No , ever since he move house cause of some problem , he didn't even come visit me much . Very long then call me once . Talk less than 2 min , he hang the call . No more . Then my aunt , after sec4 , she like don't bothered about me . All she does is ask me work and earn money myself . Sometimes , when I ask from her like 5-10 bucks . All she does is kpkb . That's it . It's been so long since I ask her for money already . Like more than a year + . and yesterday . When I ask her for 30 bucks . She scold and kp . Which makes me so damn pissed off that I almost punch her in the face . But I didn't . So I just bloody punch the wall . Sigh . Am I asking too much from my family ? Or maybe they just hate me ? Seriously if I have money now . I will throw the money back to them on their face sial . Sigh . But doubt I will bear to do it ? ): question been running around my mind . Feeling stress too . Family , friends , job , guys and r/s . Sigh , I wish , I'm stress free ! Don't know what to post . Shall post later on about where I've head to earlier on [: and my hand hurts alot . Tsktsk . Nights everyone !

i wont wanna say i wanna walk next time ):

2010-06-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

alright , here to blog . well , maybe later on , brb for 5 min , cause i heard ice-cream ringing at my house downstair , craving :x hehe ! alright , 5 min and i will blog back . wait !

back ! okay , am back to blog again , tsktsk . to keep my blog alive eh . HAHA ! yesterday , head out at 5+ to ntuc , with ahlong didi , then after that , went 211 to eat . 8+ reach home , then bathe , and nua awhile , then after that , went to meet ahdi awhile to check up on him cause he say he's sad , then after that , cab to tamp there , cause lazy wait bus x.x LOL ! reach , meet up with junkai and then walk to bus stop and bus to pasir ris . LOL ! reach there , went to cheers first , buy drink then after that , walk to pasir ris park . walk for very long man ! till almost the end , then sit down , smoke and drink . then talk to him . and he keep bully me all the way ): tsktsk ! bad friend i have , joking ! a good friend luhs , then till 2 plus i think , walk back to tamp inter !! that's seriously could have kill me man ! even in my life time that i've walk so far back . tsktsk ): and my leg seriously almost break off . LOL ! and that ass still can scare me while walking back . cause the road damn dark ): tsktsk . then reach tamp about 4 ? O.O after that , sit down awhile then head home . HAHA ! at least i smile the whole night yesterday ? (: its a good thing , been so long since i laugh the whole night / day already . tsktsk .

lazy to elaborate the whole story . cause i'm gonna head to bathe soon , after blogging and eat finish my ice-cream :x HAHAHA ! cause i was suppose to meet pluggy laopo at 5+ de , till now . i still rotting infront of my com and not moving my ass ): haha ! so yeah , maybe i shall blog tomorrow bahs , bye bloggie ! everyone please help me click on my nuffnang alright ?! be kind ! :x and do tag at my tagboard . cause its so quiet ):

hello everyone !

2010-06-10T16:00:00.002+08:00

yo , i'm back from blog ! so yeah , today woke up early eh ? morning 6 + sleep , 2 wake up le . haha ! and when i woke up . guess what ? i got 7 miss call . 10 smses . tsktsk , so wake up . call back . and it's from the job company that i've apply for yesterday . LOL !

then just now was chatting with ngyaya , then after that , recieve calls to ask if i'm interested in any 3 jobs available . so funny luhs he , cause he ask me to work in DHL . and he say if i never heard before , he chop his head off . LOL ! cool . alright , then after that , recieve another 2 calls , 1 dont know what clinic one , LOL , the other is admin job . haha , so yeah .

dont know if i should head out or not . cause i'm currently bored at home , and there's no place to go ): plus i'm lazy to move my ass off the chair ! how ? currently mood was great ! HAHA ! and i'm feeling hungry ): house the food like .... dont feel like eating it . tsktsk . maybe i should blog later on or tomorrow , cause i also dont know what to blog . and my leg still hurts ]: heading to facebook and twitter , and please be kind to click on my nuffnang ! :D thanks !

maybe this is better ?

2010-06-09T17:52:00.004+08:00

well , i'm back to post . hmm , i dont know if i did make the right decision or not . but still , now my main priority is to get a job first . not saying about any other things , be it r/s or what . so yeah , maybe this is the right decision for me eh ? haha !

sometimes , i might have make the wrong decision , sometimes , i might have go the wrong path . but i'll do it even just to see you more happier , better and good . i dont mind that i suffer . cause i'm always used to it [: so yeah , maybe if i really did hurt any people too much , then i'm sorry . even to people whom i've hurt alot or deeply . a real and sincere sorry from my heart . be it you will forgive me or not . i will still wanna say it out . i'm not seeking for forgiveness . but just to say as i feel that i've to . so yeah , sorry still .

alright , enough of all those . cause it makes my heart feel so *sour* . but yeah , am still strong to stand up though . every once you fall . it will make you grow stronger right ? [: so yeah , these few days , been out to chill . went to meet junkai and co at tamp , meet sotplug that silly laopo of mine . or either at home . lots of things happen these few days , i've lose a sister , and someone who dote me and care for me alot . well . maybe i've to learn to be independent now . after 19 years of dote , care , from people around me and family . maybe now its the time , i gonna stand up on my own feet . enough of those care , dote and pamper . cause i'm already 19 , and its time for me to get a job and stand on my own ! been thinking alot these few days , been wanting to cry these few days , holding my tears as i dont want myself to be so weak . i wanna prove to ngyaya , and everyone , that i'm someone special , who can be independent . who is not worthless . and dont want them to worried about me anymore . after 19 years of playing , i really do have enough . so start anew and change ! [:

maybe people who read my blog . might think that , " aiya , say nia luhs , you will do then say lo " but then , dont look down on me , at least give me some support luhs . so i know that , i'm not worthless after all . like how my family look down on me . i wanna get to night class o next year , after that , maybe study some useful courses . 1 year time , i wanna get things done by next year , so this year , i really do need to work ! haha . just applied some job in jobsdb.com . that's introduce by ngyaya . so yeah . gonna aim for my goal eh ? [:

and thanks to those people who are there for me when i'm feeling so down . [: ;luv you guys to the maxie ! people like : ngyaya , gary , sotplug , andrea , felicia , and lastly , the person whom i just know recently , junkai , thanks so much for the past few days eh ? [: for making me smile and accompany me . so yeah , that's all for today post . feel much better after posting out [: and i feel like smoking ! :x tsktsk .

Fuck you motherfucking Bimbo .

2010-06-07T20:27:00.002+08:00

wow ! i'm so so so so so pissed . fuck this shits ! saw someone bloody fucking bimbo blog . ccb . you think you are the only girl ? hello . grow up please ! choosing you as a close friend is really a Big big wrong mistake . omg , shouldn't have man , help you so much , and yet things are not appreciated . tsktsk . why are there such people in the world man . elephant skins ? opps . sorry if i hurt your feeling . but then , you deserve it . cause its you who post in your motherfcuking blog first [: i dont respect you ? in what ways ? wow . there're plenty of way to respect . like duh , are you a dumbfuck ? and what you say that time ? woah , i will be there for you 24/7 , LIKE AS IF ! [: who will believe this word ? no one does . gosh , who is the one who call you and text you first . who is the one to ask who out first ? tsktsk . what a GOOD sister uhh ? this is call a Jackass . who wont have attitude ? who wont have limits ? tsktsk , why not you take a video and put in youtube ? i dont mind luhs . who cares ? you can block it what . or delete it anytime . you stupid or what ? brainless , oh ya , i forgot . you fail your exams . tsktsk . cause your brain are too small to collect stuff in . LOL ! is you bloody change or me ? tsk . you better change luhs , not only me say so . is tons of people say about you , YOU ! and there's nothing wrong with my attitude . so i dont have to change [: should have let those people say about you that time , and i dont help . tsk . i wont even heartache about you anymore . cause i see your fucking blog . it make me damn dishearten . [: so bye fucking bimbo . its the end for our sistership !

i'm back !

2010-06-02T23:47:00.002+08:00

LOL , well . back here to blog already ! :D well . i guess , i dont have much to blog too . maybe i shall blog about where i go yesterday ? if i didnt forget , i about 8 or 8+ then meet ahdi . then head down to era . after that , slack awhile , audi . then mosa and co came . then play dota , blackshot , audi . head down to smoke . slack with them . then after that , went in the room to find mark . slack awhile . all the way like that . till morning 6 ? sit downstair , chat with ahdi , mosa and purified . then after that , call B . then wanted to meet today de . in the end , he tell me that he aint meeting me cause he gonna work tomorrow . so change date bahs . meet other days . and i got my bloody headache from today morning till now . sleep for 12-13 hours already still having my headache . not gonna go out later on . gonna stay at home and be a good girl today [:

and anyone got any nice english songs to intro ? hmm , getting bored of my songs already ): and those who wanna buy contact lens , please tag at my tagboard . i'm selling geo lens for 20 bucks per pair . the contact lens last for a year ! worth it alright ?! faster ah . first come first serve [:

i've got nothing to say.

2010-06-01T15:40:00.003+08:00

am here to blog . for the sake of keeping it alive . i seriously dont know what i wanna blog too . been feeling either damn pissed or down these few days . i really dont know what i want , i do feel like being alone first , but why cant i have the time alone first ? why are you hurrying me ? why are you making me tiring ? i do want some break first . i'm gonna fall soon , i have my limits . not as if i will not contact you . i'm cold to you , cause i really need some time alone . i have enough of it already . enough of all this , enough of having those troubles that i gonna have to think . enough of the stress now . like whatever i did , wasnt good enough , like i'm a bad bad bad person in this world . i know it take 2 hands to clap . but , i really.cant.take.up.stress . i'm not blocking my blog only because i just dont want to . so yeah . i block my twits and fb only . not i wanna do till like that , its that , i just dont know . the more you force me . the more stress i'm , the more tired i'm . like that day when i'm with my friends . and yesterday the chat when we chat at msn . what do you want too ? are you getting tired too ? i'm thinking , is it more better when we be friends or like the past , or do we have to continue like this ? i do prefer you being back like that past , when we hang out together . and i can talk/share stuff with you . i dont know if i will make the wrong mistake . but then i still have to think . i dont know still . i'm stress , confused . give.me.some.time.please . i'm sorry for everything .

and sorry that i didnt wanna reply your msn or sms . i just wanna be alone first . alright ? sorry . hope you did view what i wanna say from my blog . i do need time for it now . i'm very sorry . sorry for my selfishness . sorry for making you so tired now . sigh . if you text me normal sms , i still will reply . but if its regarding this issue , or about settling the problem . then i wont reply bahs . sorry .

should i get back to blog and post ?

2010-05-31T13:43:00.003+08:00

well . i'm still wondering . whether i should continue to blog or leave it to rot ? hmm , cause there's actually nothing much to blog about my life right now . cause its like the same . slack , home , sleep . then wake , dota , use com , sleep . all the same . seldom hang out already like last time . maybe cause i get bored of it ? or maybe cause i dont feel like hanging out them already ? as i'm not that close with them now . those i'm close with now is only my bitches , adeline , felicia , andrea . and for the guys , ahhao only bahs . that i'm still in contact with . oh ya , and xiaoken . Lmaos . so yeah . last time , i will think that brotherhood will last in a group . but now . it aint true . only one that treats you well , be there for you all the time when you need someone , and who wont betray/backstab you , then you can consider as a brother . so yeah . well , let me see what can i blog ehs ?

yesterday , was at era with ahhao . then cheeho came down . and then slack awhile till iva came down . then till 11 , took a bus to bedok inter . walk to ntuc , went in to buy wangwang . Lmaos . then after that , walk to bedok central , 219b there . then wait for iva bro for like almost 2 hour . like so damn long . and mood wasnt that good too . then back home . jitao toh . sleep till just now 11 plus , wake . and now currently thought of blogging . dont know why . aint really in the good mood . for like these few days bahs , am having bad bad bad pms )): sigh ! so please dont pissed me off ): promise to blog often bahs .

Selling contact lens [:

2010-05-30T13:02:00.002+08:00

hi , here to blog like for after how.many.years ehs ? LOL ! alright , i'm here to blog is just because to sell contact lens . so if anyone interested . pm me or text me . or leave a comment at my tagboard . LOL ! anyone interested in geo lens ? i'm selling it for $20 per pair only . all degree available . the deliver will be by 2 weeks time only !! :D we have all colour available for 14mm . and 14.8mm only have grey and brown ! hurry order from me if you want ! :D its cheap and it last for 1 year ! so those who want , faster order alright ! (: support me !!! :x thanks uhh !

well . there's also nothing much for me to post . cause am having nothing much to do these few days . LOLOL . like so sians . either stay at home , or at rainbow house . ton at her house for 4 days . Like so what.the.fuck. LOL ! yeah . after that , stay at home . if not meet adeline and cheeho that day to era . later on might be meeting ahhao and adeline . to era :D if not i just stay at home to rest and rot :D so that all . faster do support me at selling contact lens oh !

get the game rolling (:

2010-05-06T22:03:00.023+08:00

well . gosh , my blog getting spider webs , omg . okay . here to clear away all those webs , well . been doing nothing much this few days , went out slack awhile and home . well . tueday , went out to meet prawny , then after that , night 1 plus 2 , meet up with andrea , i swear , she's damn fking long . she told me that 12 meet . but then drag for 2 hour .

gosh ! but still . cant bear to be angry with her . and sorry prawny . for making you go back so late ): well . head to br . enjoy ourself . chat and camwhore ! (: only got some pics with me now . not sure if still got others not ): i miss h2h talk with my bitch . and after that ,morning , 6 like that , went home . and sleep till dont.know.what.time . LOL !

then after that , yesterday evening bahs i think , wake . bathe everything , then done preparing at 7 plus ? then after that , meet prawny . and then cab to tamp 1 . cause yaya reach already . together with peggy and their friend . then after that , rot at the dont.know.what.place . then after that , 10 plus . all went home .

then after that , went to mac to rot . till 11.25 then cab prawny back . then cab to dte . reach there , wait for germaine , xingyu and meiping . like 10 min ++ la . then peixin came out . so chat up with her . then after that , reach , went to the chalet . only the 5 of us there . so talk out and joke . LOL !

till morning 6 plus . cab home . LOL ! reach home . toh . till just now 4 plus . nua till now . never even leave the computer la . omg ): and keep say wanna go smoke . till now my ass still havent move ): LOL ! okay . gonna head to smoke later on . upload picture time ! (:
My blog's done well, credits to adeline** :x you do chu yi , i do shi wu uhh (:

memories (:

2010-05-01T15:58:00.002+08:00

well . here to post about yesterday , went out at 6 ? or 6plus ? then after that walk to inter mrt there to meet prawny and ahdi . after that , puff a stick . then went to take mrt to tampiness . then saw ahqiang there . then prawny went home first . wait at tamp inter for him . then he reach . hop in the car and then off to vivo . wanted to catch ironman 2 !! but all full . only front 4 slot available ! idiot la . then after that , went to the mount faber park . thought which park it is . cause i remember i been there before with vance , drea and co . then after that , reach . then remember its the one when i was so angry then i walk alone first . while everyone was at the back shouting for me . LOL ! and that point of time , i was putting my ear piece on ;x HAHAHAS ! well . that's the past now . and its all been called as my memory (: well . continue the story . then after that went to the left hand side of the road there . cause that time when i with drea they all is walk right , which lead to the park . and i didnt know that left hand side there was the cable car thingy . and there's a place call the jewel box ? LOL ! never mind , dont care . then after that , went in to have some light food to munch on . then after that , ahdi keep take picture . LOL ! picture are at ahdi phone . upload some other days bahs . didnt took much pic too . cause all phone no flash !! ): then slack till 11 plus 12 ? went off . and head to changi airport t3 !! wanted to see the aeroplanes one . but then its at t2 . idiot . then slack there , till 1 plus 2 , then go home . reach home at like 2 plus 3 ? then nua , and the weather like so damn fcuking hot . then keep flip around , and cant sleep . till morning 6 then sleep . and woke at 2 plus 3 ? and now currently blogging . as nothing much to do . i'm feeling so hot now . bth , going in room . tatas bloggie ! (: blog other days .

unblock my blog already (:

2010-04-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

well . i think i better unblock my blog , cause today like got so many people asking me why i block my blog ? LOL ! hahahas ! so i decide to unblock my blog (: so sorry readers ah ?! well . am like so bored . trying to download the new version of dota . 1.24.2 . but then hor ! very slow sial . paper com of mine ): and i wanna find map hack !! ): LOL ! hahahas ! LOL ! am like waiting for the download to finish . like so slow only la . 7% now -.- wanted to dota with @felicia and @andrea one . but then dont wanna let them wait . so yeah . maybe other time bahs (: so right now , i'm here blogging and talking on phone and on msn (: wow . multi-task . * claps * hmm . am like so bored now . tsktsk . well . seriously i also dont know wanna blog about what . cause it seems like there's nothing to blog too . and i'm getting bored of blog already . been tonning at dearest house for 2 days !! 48 hour man ! gosh . LOL ! then finally now back home . and gonna sleep later after a dota match with tiger . LOL ! hmm , tomorrow going to meet ahdi . accompany him to tamp to do his phone and then to era (: cool uhh , its been long since i went to era . sort of miss that place alot ehs ): people like jj , brandon they all . those era peeps ! hahas ! so yeah , anyway , nothing much to post too . please tag more often ehs ? read and tag la . dont read and run lehs !! byebye !

happy belated birthday elysia baby (:

2010-04-26T16:33:00.003+08:00

well . i know its damn long since i post . well . on the 24th , meet ahdi , and prawny . then after that , went to eat long john and then cab to tamp and then pasir ris . while prawny went home to change . and so me and ahdi went to elysia bbq . then saw lots of people . then ahdi was like so sians la . cause alot of people there he dont know one . then i was like so busy . all keep call me . then i have to from here run to there . there run to here . wow . mad busy la . then after that . went to chat with dearest and jelly . then saw iva darling . talk to her awhile . and then back to dearest there . then also . talk to sotplug laopo . like so super long since i saw and talk to them la . got so much stuff to talk about . after that , ahdi dulan with me i think . cause i neglect him and i just went to talk to the rest . then 1 plus , prawny came . and then i ask ahdi to go over find him . LOL ! abit guilty ah . then continue to talk with dearest they all . hahas . and i let ahdi wait for 4hr 32min , and prawny 2hr plus i think ;x HEHEHE ! okay , i know i'm being a baddie x.x then after that , me , sotplug , antidote and absolute walk out from the bbq , send them off to take cab . and then i walk to mac to find ahdi & prawny . then after that , went to ecp there slack . and see they eat mac . then after that , home sweet home (:

yesterday , went to meet prawny at my house downstair . walk to inter , then after that train down to pasir ris . to catch the show kick ass . quite funny too ehs , rating 8/10 (: then went to pasir ris park there sit . and it was like so quiet , not even a single noise la . like so wu lu sial . no people walk past , or people bbq , till like 20-30 min ? then got people walk over . LOL ! after that , 3 , cab back home (: and sleep ! till now . gonna go prepare and then meet ahdi . then meet prawny and then meet dearest . hehe ! so bye bloggie ! blog some other days (:

N.O.T.H.I.N.G to say

2010-04-23T13:16:00.006+08:00

well . back to blog . so yeah . cause nothing much to do too . so might as well just blog ? hahas ! actually i have nothing much to post too . well . last few days , been meeting yaya and prawny , yesterday also . then after that went ecp there drink . and then home sweet home . as yesterday wasnt in a very good mood . everything was like so cock up . so yeah . extreamly moody yesterday . cant fking control my emotion . till when ngyaya almost fall down . i smile . well . maybe i'm just too super random ? hahs ! shall upload the pic later when i with ngyaya at bq take de pics (: well . super long since i took picture with her already ): so that's all . bye bloggie .

well . think about yesterday . maybe my attitude was that bad uhh ? but then seriously . i feel like slapping the hell out of my aunt and that stupid job . sigh . a new start , a new day (: jys in whatever i'm gonna do . hahas !

well . this is why i love her so much ehs ?

funny ahdi (:

2010-04-20T15:22:00.007+08:00

LOL . alright , im here to have a short post . as i know my blog is very dead -.- well . am currently on msn with ahdi . that joker . who always never fail to make me smile uhh ? and we know each other for like 4 years already uhh ? HAHAHAS ! ahdi . be glad that i post about you hors ! hahas ! well . i'm here to blog about him cause of his stupid face in webcam . LOL ! HAHAHAHAS ! i took pics of his unglam face ;x HAHAHAS ! so let the picture do the talking (:

that's all . this is how funny he is . indeed a good ahdi uhh ? (: and if he saw all this , he might kill me . LOL !

gonna start work soon ):

2010-04-13T01:05:00.002+08:00

well . am gonna have a short post . and i dont think i will have time to post too ehs ? cause am gonna be busy with work , and going out with ngyaya , ahdi and prawny they all (: well . this few days been with them , and tomorrow is my last day of freedom . and will be busy with work soon . hopefully i can work long la . well . watched 2 movie for the past few days . one is how to train your dragon . and the other one is monga . LOL ! nice song indeed . and maybe i did watch other show . but i forget bahs ;x hahas ! well . maybe i should close the blog , since its already so dead la ): hmm . not sure yet too . might upload picture some other days (: been having lots of fun this few days too . and looking forward to my work on wednesday . my 1st job bahs . cause the rest are just part time . LOL ! well . shall get a rest soon . and sleep early . cause tomorrow meeting ahdi too (: and gonna start to sleep early . as my working time is 10 - 7 ): sad die sial ! LOL ! so yeah . that's all . anything can give me a text . bye bloggie ! shall update soon . tag more la people ):

dont know what to blog

2010-04-03T15:42:00.002+08:00

argh , my blog like so so so dead la , seriously , i dont have anything to blog . nor to talk about , well . been doing nothing much for the past few days , as i'm sick ! argh , got fever , flu , cough , sore throat and and , headache + body ache -.- like feeling so terrible only la . LOL ! now's getting better already , so went era yesterday , with prawny . meet up with brandon and co . its been long since i saw them too eh ? like we have nothing much to talk already , LOL ! dont know why too . maybe cause they have studies ? hahas ! well . today suppose to have a outing to era at 2 , and that adeline tan is taking a nap . wtf la . lmaos . she still can take a nap when i just sleep for less than 4 hour . good her . if she dua me today , seriously i sure flare up one . lmaos . zzz . am like feeling so sleepy but i cant get to sleep . maybe at night go home and sleep bahs ): hmm , and its raining now ! OMG la , lmaos . awhile more shall go prepare and then head to era . and i wanna study and work ! ): rofls , shall go smoke and prepare bahs (: blog again soon alright ? :D

sigh

2010-03-24T16:13:00.003+08:00

wellwell , back to blog , as i've nothing much to do too at home . was like so bored la . well . supposing to go out meet my dearest rainbow . but think she's still sleeping . as she didnt reply my text ! silly her , miss her so much man . gosh . wellwell . what should i post ehs ? actually nothing much too . been either era or home this few days . like so mad bored . then yesterday , went to garena and play . well . and lose 3 round ): hahahas , its ok . practice make perfect (: its just a game only . so yeah .

and april . i've a job from my ngyaya , stock taking i think . for 2 days . the pay is 5.50 per hour , there's also training , for a day at jurong -.- so yeah , anyone interested . please text me alright ? 82826563 (: by today yeah . work at popular . lmaos .

and my silly sweetheart , dont sad anymore la . i believe you will find someone who wont break your heart and will last with you . wont make you so sad and mad like now . now is the time for you to study . and stay single (: like me . ;hoho ! LOL . well . dont rush for r/s dude , not that you are ugly , its just that the time is not ripe yet (: so cheer up ! and meet me soon ;love

so yeah , that's all i wanna say . and those sisters of mine , last long with your boyf's alright ? (: meet up soon oh !

O.O

2010-03-20T08:43:00.003+08:00

well . its been a week since i blog . anyway , feel like closing blog . as its already dead . and not much tagger or viewer too . so yeah . shall decide and see how .

well . anyway , been doing nothing much this whole week . either era , or go bun's chalet . and happy belated birthday bunbun sist (: well . went her chalet , didnt saw much people luhs , kira , husky , rong brother , bunbun sist , nightkids , his girlf , antidote , andrew , rainbow , her boyf x.tears , ming , and i dont know already . LOL ! its like 1234567 years since i saw them la . like miss them effing lots . promise to go back to the chalet the next day , but it was like raining so heavily . so didnt make my way back . and yesterday , supposingly to go LTN there drinking with era peeps , cause rhianne is going back to england . sad case right ? but was so tired that i over slept . everyone is like leaving . well . some for studies , so gonna go back stay . some mia , or whatever shyts . life is like so bored somehow . at least i still got some friends stay by and its okay already (: true friends are hard to find i know . but glad that i still do have a few true friends (: anyway , shall start finding job soon , argh ! no money sucks man ! and my studies . well . so wont have time to blog too . anything can text me . so yeah . bye blogger and peepos .

sigh

2010-03-13T22:13:00.015+08:00

alright , back to posting , about the day yesterday uhh ? didnt took lots of pics , so yeah , only about 5 pics ? me and @Xiaoade one only . cause the rest are like busy talking . omg . went out yesterday at 6 plus ? then went to collect 20 from my daddy , as i'm totally broke . so yeah , after that , cab down to era there . and meet @Xiaoade . then saw mark , jj , mocha , gary , adeline . hug @Xiaoade and mocha & jj , then went to on com and play for awhile .
cause was waiting for @Pieceofmemo to come over . and she was like so long la . then drea ask me to meet her . then i was like ok . anyway wait till wanna rot already . so call @byesecret , and she was so sweet enough to come over to era here to fetch me & @Xiaoade ehs ? cool . love her too man . went in the cab , was like so mad happy la . then hug her . and then i start to open my potato chips . cant really open it . so @Xiaoade help me to open (: thanks sweetheart .
reach town , then we were like finding for yoshinoya . LOL ! finally found it . then was feeling abit weird . maybe too long didnt hang out with them ? saw felicia , clara , huiyee and yuxuan . then i was complaining that i wanna eat . as i was damn hungry . so share with @Xiaoade . then she was like asking me to eat those veggie !! hahas . silly her , cause she say it taste weird and awwful . after eating , went to have a stick of ciggy (:
then decide to go plaza sing , so reach there , went to play com first . like 2 round of dota ? yesterday dota was like shyt man ! gosh ! but did have fun with my sisters luhs . then went to the nearby coffee shop and eat , and send @Xiaoade back . puay cab for her . give her a hug and off she go ): sadly she cant ton with me eh ? do really miss her and her sillyness . HAHAS !
then we went to take a cab to boat quay , as they wanna drink . but then now boat quay change , 3am close -.- so yeah , then went to sabai sabai , then to oasis , but none of these places can get in -.- waste like 1 hours standing outside oasis . fcuk up la . then went to parklane again . was like having fun la .
then some stuff happen , shall not elabrate la . lazy , so yeah , after that , all cab home , reach home , off to sleep . mad tired . that's all , now still thinking of place to go . like so bored la . nobody wanna go out ): am so lazy to go cube too .

busy busy busy ):

2010-03-11T22:06:00.002+08:00

wow wow ! i'm back to blog . its like so long that i did post with much pics uhh ? hmm , anyway , tomorrow will be a busy day for me la . i swear , gosh . gonna head to era , then meet gary didi first , then wait till adeline tuition finish , then meet her , slack awhile and gonna head down to town , to meet those dearest sist of mine , @byesecret , @FeliciaAyuki , @Xiaoade , @huiyeee . this 4 sisters of mine , do really made my day good . smile ! other plan for tomorrow , i'm not sure . cause havent plan . so yeah , tomorrow plan with prawny kor gonna cancel already uhh ? well . next week bahs i think (: hmm . alright , shall not blog already . cause i dont know what to blog too . busy busy day tomorrow . after tomorrow will blog when i'm back ! (:

manford neo (:

2010-03-09T19:26:00.003+08:00

this is what me and ade talk about ford . he's being such a idiot in the phone . so me and ade talking about him (: below pic (: take a look !

SO THIS IS THIS 2 PICTURE (: THANKS FOR VIEWING ! ENJOY AH !

my house com is okay (:

2010-03-08T19:34:00.010+08:00

hi peeps ! wellwell . i'm back to blog finally . cause my house com is finally fix by my uncle . but then its very laggy than before . its like everything load so slowly . like takes a few min then done loading . god damn it . well . lets see what i've done the past few days !

well . been watching movies this few days with kor . on the 5th , went to vivo . watch alice in wonderland . rofls . and yeah , didnt know that vivo there the cinema was like so awesome luhs . the chair and there's table for you to eat your food . rofls . but then before we went to watch the movie . went the st.james there to take a walk . was like so big inside luhs , then on the back of the building , its power house and drangonfly .

didnt realise that drangonfly was just beside power house . HAHAHAS! mountain tortise ehs . then after movie , went to era . play dota and then home sweet home . having headache too ): then sleep till the next day , night i think . then went out with kor again . went to cs , watch movie . then after that era .

then play dota . then off to prawning with ford and kor . walaos . pathetic me la . caught 2 prawns to 3 only sial . then ford was so heng to catch like 5 ? beginer lucks ! HAHAS ! the rest is kor catch one . like 10 + ah . then till morning . we cook the prawn and dont feel like eating . then intend to go home . dont know they got that event sial . then dont allow us to go back .

then got a traffic police came . and bring us out the road . cause lots of people cycling . so yeah . then reach home . sleep . yeah , and some stuff , me and kor know uhh ? (: HAHAS ! caught our last movie . then off to era .

and then yeah , and home to sleep . so total . caught 3 movie ehs ?
*1st is alice in wonderland ,
*2nd happy go lucky ,
*3rd being human .
all this 3 are quite nice . not bad at all (: rating , 7/10 . well . shall not talk much le . upload those long time pics too . the shisha one . (:
here are the shisha picture & prawning . (:

update (:

2010-02-28T20:51:00.002+08:00

well . after the 18 feb post . i didnt update till now uhh ? anyway , here to update what i did for the past few days . well . on the 19 , went out with yaya and gary . then walk and went to bugis there walk . then eat . and then after that , went to have our shisha . but then , went for a new place to shisha , cause she saw her friend , and her friend intro us to dont know which kuku shop . then reach there . sit and order drinks and shisha . have fruit punch shisha . and i cant taste a single shyts . as was sick that day bahs . having fever . and very xinku . get very paranoid easily x.x then its was like about 10 plus . so me , baolian and ahdi went off . then left yaya and her 1 friend . so we took but 7 or 14 bahs . not quite sure too . forgot already . and then was freezing inside bus like fcuk . then reach bedok . went home . rofls . and off to sleep .

then after that , either is i stay at home . if not go era . if not go meet prawny kor and go prawn . or dota at era . learning new hero . and prawning is fun ! ;hoho . even thought its boring . as sometimes no prawn . but when you caught a prawn . its damn shoik ! HAHAHAS ! well . nothing else already too . going era awhile bahs now . currently at serangoon . mad bored . cant send my picture with bluetooth . lousy lappy . LOL ! ok . shall not be naggy . find 1 day i shall upload all those pictures up . too much picture for me man now . am mad with my new wall paper in my phone . nice picture ! ;x hahas ! alright . off to facebook awhile then off i go to era . so yeah , anyway , my line have been reactiveted . so anything text me or call bahs , tag more peeps ! ;love

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2010-02-22T19:46:00.001+08:00

hoho , back to post a short post . due to my house computer spoilt . so wont be blogging often , till my computer is fix x.x so yeah , so do tag more often . and anything , sms me or call me . but i cant sms back , as line got cut off . will use house phone to call back if its important (: thanks everyone ! tag more !

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2010-02-18T03:22:00.004+08:00

alright , back to post . wednesday , went to yaya house to bai nian . then before that , went out at 2 plus 3 i think . then went to meet yannick and xiaodi . then head to gary house and bai nian . reach there . watch tv . and then the parents came back . then called to eat steamboat . woi . was damn full at that moment . but then still . eat lo . after eating , went to yannick house . then also to bai nian . then head to yaya house . reach there . both parents not there . and then they start to say play mahjong . LOL ! and i watch only . play 1 round . but anyhow play want . LOL ! then after that , baolian came . then after that , went to the kitchen . to see they play blackjack . LOL ! then i play too . lose 2 bucks x.x rolfs . then went down to smoke . and then slack awhile . then come up . cause jie and di call us to go up . then go up . play blackjack again . then at first keep win . until behind . when xiaodi join , then keep lose -.-'' lose 6 bucks . then went down for dinner with jie and baolian . as didi gonna go home . then me , jie and baolian order zi cha . rolfs . eat till damn full . then smoke le and we all go off . send baolian home then i head down to era . to meet korkor . then audi and dota a round . then went prawning ! prawn alot man . 32 prawn for 3 hour . cool ! hahas ! then after that , homesweethome . later gonna meet jie and baolian . going back bgss there . then after that , pei di go home change , go shisha (: after that , dinner . and maybe i will head down to tam . see how later (: upload picture now . for the food (:
she see the food too hungry le . see the face ;x LOLOL ! ok la . that's all for today . later shisha will take more picture and upload it (: take care peeps . tag more alright ! (:

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2010-02-16T10:14:00.003+08:00

well well . back to blog . nothing much to blog too i guess . sigh ! been staying at home for the past few days . been so bored too ! later gonna go bainian at jiejie house . and then go walkwalk bahs ! not intending to stay at her house . just feel like going out walk alone ? lol . mad me . see how first . shall head to bedok inter to get my jumper clothes first . then go tam see see ? maybe got things for me to buy bahs . see how lo . (: have been browsing those pics that we took . a group of family . hahs ! well . though is the past already . but then , it still have memories (: and these memories are the sweetest memories . but then not all are the sweetest , there are also sadness (: am i right ? hahs ! glad to know that all of you are still fine . and at least i'm happy . shall not care much too already . maybe i shall start to care my own life now (: mad me ! LOL . alright , shall go eat and head out (: byes blogger .

happy cny&valentine's day everyone (:

2010-02-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

well . back to blog . shall start on with the outing on 12 (:

went out at 5 plus , then meet didi at my house downstair . then walk to inter . wanted to take a mrt over to meet yaya at aljunied . but then instead , we took a cab over . as it was very hot . so yeah , reach there at 6 ? then after that , meet yaya and 1 of her friend . and cab to town ! then walk to iron . and then went to have our dinner at xing hua i think . then while eating , sihua came over . then eat and chat . after that , went to have a puff . and ford called . and ask us to go over tanglin centre . which is about 5 min walk . then walk over . pay for his cab fare first . then went down to his work place . saw ahhao , xab , x.shawn . then play afew round of pool . and then drink start . at first , drink beer . a cup only . then after that , they prepare finish already , then drink martell . and then play games and drink . especially 5 - 10 , and wu qui tiao . LOL ! make us drink alot in this 2 game . then at about 11 plus 12 , saw vance they all . and someone which i dont wish to see -.-'' never mind , so dont care . as dont want that person to spoilt mood . LOL ! so continue to play with jie , gary , ford , sihua . then half way , sihua went off first . as he going boat quay there drink for the 2nd round x.x then till 1 plus , went off . and then took a cab , send jie home first . then me and didi went to era . at about 6 plus , ford came . then dota all this . till 11 plus . took a cab back . and homesweethome . sleep till 6 plus .

6 plus , woke up . prepare and went to serangoon . my big aunt place . for renioun dinner . then after till . eat till 9 . my san shu came . took red packet and off to sleep at about 9 plus . woke at 4 plus 5 , send all happy cny and happy valentine's day . and off back to sleep . sleep till morning 10 plus , got wake by my aunt . cause my xiao gu called from oversea . then wake up . nua awhile . then bathe change everything , wait for everyone to come . collect my red packets . and then at about 3 plus , my uncle send me to paya lebar mrt . took a mrt back to bedok . and meet gary at chai chee block 40 . then smoke . slack . and went home to change . then cab down to era . play com . till 10 plus . bus to nelson house . bai nian . then went to bedok south . wanted to meet jie . but then aunt called to go back . so bo bian . went home . currently now blogging . going off to sleep soon . as i'm so tired ! ): and this year red packets is like so little ): less than 100 sial . ! cry die me ! shall head off to sleep now . will upload those pictures soon ! nights peeps ! tag more readers ! ;hoho !

12th (:

2010-02-12T11:37:00.003+08:00

woots . finally today is the 12 . and yeah . yesterday suppose to meet korkor want . but then i fall asleep while waiting . 6.30 he call . but i 7 wake . then text him . and no reply . walaos ! then fall back asleep . till midnight 4 plus , wake . and go back sleep till 7 plus , then nua back and sleep till 10 plus . then now using com lo (:

on the 10th , went to era . then meet korkor . then after that , play com till midnight , then cab down to kovan lan . reach there , saw eric , poon , elgin , kunny and some others . then play com , till morning , then bth , keep wanting to sleep , cause 2 days didnt sleep le x.x then went to see my tao hua xiao mei . and the next happiness esp 19 . then went audi . saw elysia , ask her come down , cause i'm rotting ! ): then after that , she reach , audi afew rounds . then go eat . then back and audi again . then keep aim for mission ! ;wild ! and i didnt pass a single one . then chat too . then till 3 or 3 plus , took a cab with elysia and eric . then reach , alight , and homesweethome (:

today will be going out . then meet gary didi , and yaya ! omg , miss yaya ttm luhs ! its like 2 mths plus to 3 mths since i saw her ! i think so . or more than that . hahas ! then after that go meet ford . hmm , eat dinner and off to his work place there drink . and sorry prawny kor that i put you aeroplane again x.x sat ok ? rolfs ! anyway , dont know what to blog now . am tired still . LOL ! after my 17 hour of sleep ! ;x tag more peeps ! no more readers or tags already ):

feeling fcuked up

2010-02-10T00:38:00.004+08:00

well . back to blog . monday , went out at 7 . then go down tampiness mall . meet my kor at cs coffee bean . and then went to have a smoke . after that . went up to catch a movie , call " my ex " . the show start at 9.15 , so walk around , went to coffee shop sit . and drink water . then went to smoke again . and up to watch the movie (:
in the threater , was like keep sms only luhs , cause quite scary sial . wtf . got shock for quite alot of times . HAHAS ! but the ending is sad and stupid . after that , its about 10.45pm . so went to the toilet first . and then went to T1 there sit and drink . then i order a iceblueberrycoffee i think . and it taste so weird . but the grass jelly inside is nice (: hahas ! after drinking and chatting , went to walk around and thinking of place to go . then at 1 plus , andrea called me and tell me to help me buy cigg for her , and she come down tam collect it . so yeah . wait and wait . and i wait for another 2 hour ! cause she 3 plus going 4 then reach . so smoke a stick . and she went off first . while me and kor take cab , he alight first and me went to era .

reach era . top up com . and was like feeling freaking hungry . then yeah . play com , dota all the way , for 7 hours . LOLOL ! mad me . then after that , lazy to dota or play others le . so watch the tao hua xiao jie . LOL ! watch 4 epsiode . then went home with didi . so tired luhs . then reach home at 2 plus 3 ? then after that , off to lala land . super duper tired . and i sleep less than 13 hours x.x ! 8 hour of sleep only . later might be going down era . not sure yet . see how bahs . blog other days ! (: tag more .

sometimes , things do change , i dont know how to make it not change , or to tell her . well . i seriously thinks that we drifted alot already , yeah , sunday i text you . you didnt reply all the way till today , when i text you . you then reply . sigh . go do whatever you want bahs . maybe cause its him , make you drift from us . always go find them , and not us . well . we are not the important i guess . so be it bahs . you should know who i'm saying to . do whatever you like alright ? i give up . and you can go put your tattoo or whatever shyts now . i dont care . whether you wanna attend on the 12 . its up to you le . on the 11 . you also can forget it le . dont need to go out together already (: byebye .
re edit : and since you say you only can go tam , then why cant you text me and ask me meet you at tam ? like i wont go ? for this past few days , i was at tm there . and i also did pass by your house there . and a sms to me very xinku ? you rather make me worry all this . and not replying my text all this . and happily go enjoy with them uhh (: nice . since that's the case . then you stay there ok ? dont come join us anymore . you walk your way , we walk ours (: simple lo . cause its like . they are much more important than us . how long we know you ? and how long you know them ? you listen to our words before not ? no (: so go stick with them uhh (:

morning dogs (:

2010-02-09T09:05:00.002+08:00

wow ! early in the morning 4 plus - 6 plus . a dog barking at my blog . call what 999 . cool ! interesting sial . say i buang all this . wow . doubt you are worst ? hahas ! my tag board did write what i wanna say already . so i dont think i have to repeat . so yeah , if you dislike me that much , just go to the left hand corner and click on the X . so yeah , dont come back again alright ? move far far away from here if you are so handsome or pretty , cause i dont mix with handsome/pretty people . cause i'm so buang what . so yeah . remember to move far far away alright ?

shall blog later on when i reach home (: hahas ! so blog later on , this post is for the 999 DOG :D byes .

the fishing day (:

2010-02-07T08:04:00.006+08:00

well . just reach home . and yeah , went to fishing with my 3 dearest sist ! felicia , andrea , huiyee and clara . went out at 12 plus , then went over to andrea house downstair to meet felicia and clara . and andrea was like so slow as a snail . we wait for her for like 2 hours ! while waiting , went to 7-11 to buy drinks , and coffee shop to eat . and walk back to her house downstairs . and huiyee was on her way over . then finally , andrea came down . and then huiyee came too . and we went to take a cab over to white sand there the fishing pond . on the way there , i saw a small crockcroach . and everyone start to scream in the cab and move here and there . LOL . finally reach , all alight fast . and walk to the small pond there .
start our fishing . at first , caught nothing . then after that , about 1 hour plus . andrea caught a promphet . then next , i caught a japanese fish , dont know what fish is that too . then the uncle was like so good to us . give us catch the fish at a smaller pond . that one is caught 1 fish , pay 12 . but we dont have to pay ! (: then caught 2 over there , and huiyee caught 1 at the pond that me and andrea caught (: so the 3 of us are lucky luhs ! (: but the hook , got hook on the net alot of times . and on the tree too -.-'' hahas ! then at about 6 plus , took the 5 fish out and took pictures . and we give the fish to a old uncle . so nice of us (: wow ! today felicia camera got about like 100 + pictures . ;hoho . then homesweethome after that . currently now re blogging , facebook & twit . and i miss the show ''my ex'' with my korkor . cause i thought he's busy . and he thought i'm busy . and adeline didnt meet me today . wtf sial she . i hate her lahs ): anyway tag more peeps/readers . my tagboard like so dead now ): done with uploading those picture . shall afk now (: remember to tag more alright ?! (:

i'm just myself (:

2010-02-05T05:49:00.002+08:00

alright , back to posting . wow ! 5 more days to meet friends , 6 more days to shopping , 7 more days to celebration , time pass real fast isnt it ? a few more day , marie gonna fly oversea to study , sigh , jj going oversea too . wow . so many people going oversea . maybe i should really determine to find a job soon , since i already change to be good , that means now , i have to start to find a job too . maybe i shall not go back to study first , till i save enough (: though life is tough , but still we have to walk through it right ? though sometimes i wish i'm fcuking rich , but then , money cant buy alot of stuff (: yeah yeah , some of you might think , what's wrong with me . but then , weiwei grown mature already (: cool ! i dont know different lifestyle could change me so much ! and i'm really very happy . hahas . and cant wait to meet my adeline sh , got so much stuff to tell her , and many more . maybe sat ? i can see her already . shall go back watch my tao hua xiao mei (: takecare peeps ! enjoy !

thinking of the past memories (:

2010-02-03T02:33:00.003+08:00

well . back to blog bahs , nothing much to say too . been staying up at home for the past 2 days , cause very lazy to go out . and nothings much to do too . either at era , if not rot at home . well 9 more days , to outing , with ade , ford and ngyaya (: cant wait for that day though , cause meeting my precious yaya , even though i always make her pissed . but still . she's a good sister of mine . love ya ! and ade too . too long didnt meet her , and its like we drift alittle already , never mind , starting to think of points too . like even though i know they are close to me . but i cant stop them from doing the things they want . they have their own freedom too right ? (: so yeah , just that i dont wish to get drift from them . maybe i'm a little selfish ;x or jealous , cause they meet the others . alright , but then now at least i know how to think already (: so its ok . but then dont let us drift alright ?

somehow . i feel that now my thinking and attitude , is getting better . much more better . maybe because of different friends i'm with ? or me myself wanna change it ? hahs ! i dont know too . maybe its more better when i'm like this . smiling everyday , not having much attitude ? to me , i feel its more better . not sure what the rest thinks too .

will be super busy from next week on , most likely , not very free to meet people up x.x gonna buy new year clothes , go out on 12 , then maybe on the 10th too . shall depends bahs . all need $$ ): gonna work already , damn broke now . shagg ! finding part time job , anyone got any job ? plus cant stand long one . cause i bth standing long x.x got job text me alright ? 82826563 . nothing much to post too ehs ? just update for the sake to not let my blog have spider web ;x LOL ! shall get to sleep now . cause later gonna wake up early to do stuff . then head to era . anything text me bahs (: nights everyone , shall upload pictures real soon . when i go out (: !

fcuk up

2010-01-29T19:20:00.002+08:00

alright , back to post . gosh , early in the morning got pissed off by someone . then off com and head off to sleep (: sleep at 11 plus 12 , then wake at 5 plus 6 . still damn tired . korkor bluff me uhh . say 3.30 movie . msg half way then went missing ?! hahs . bet he's damn tired luhs , cause just now prawning that time he almost dozed off ;x maybe gonna catch movie later on ? (: fcuking broke already man , shall find a job soon . school can wait first (: LOL ! am texting with tiger , clammy and korkor . mood getting better i guess . hahs ! shall go back nua awhile . till that prawny korkor reply my text ! ): suddenly feel very attitude now . hot temper too . and yeah , i know i change alot too . but then to a better way . even though i still have my attitude , and its abit worst . but it depends (:

my life is just perfect (:

2010-01-29T10:41:00.002+08:00

well back from toning ;x went to era yesterday night . and ya , cause someone ask me to dota , and call him when i reach , reached , then call him , and ya , he answered and went back to sleep ! ;wild make me wait for 4 hour . meanwhile . play audi and dota , 1st round was me & ford , vs drea and huiyee (: and we lose . cause i'm using a kuku hero . PL ;x nice hero . 2nd round , play with kor , ford and 4 AI ;D and we won ! hahas . like around 4 , he called and say he's awake x.x baddie ! then went to audi find him awhile . then after that , play a few round , till like 5.30 , went prawning with korkor and ford . from like 6 prawn till like just now 10 plus ? then after that went home . dont intend to sleep . cause today all like cancel appointment x.x never mind , shall go watch daybreak with korkor at tam (: nice show i think . and i brought 3 small prawns back . see whether i can keep them alive not :D hahahas ! quite cute actually . and not bare to kill them and cook and eat . so poor thing luhs can ! hahas . okok . that's all bahs . quite happy with my life now thought , going out , and slack . shall go back to school real soon ! (: nights peeps !

x.x

2010-01-26T23:11:00.001+08:00

fcuk , i'm having a headache . zzz . dont know why . nothing much to blog too . gonna go meet brandon and co tomorrow . pool (: nights everyone .

back (:

2010-01-25T03:32:00.011+08:00

wow ! its been a long time since i post ehs ? was busy going out and i neglect my blog . hahahas ! maybe i shall come back and blog (:
been going out with brandon and co . that day went to town . cause brandon need to buy bag for his school . which is starting on this thursday . so fast man . and me ? no work no school . gosh . maybe i should go back to school uhh ? cause just now talking with the stupid prawny kor . and he say either i go work nor school . but then school will be better . so i shall consider it (: after town , went to bugis there . to shisha . LOL ! and brandon they all order rose thingy . i dont really like shisha . rolfs . but then they insist me to take a try . and i took it . not that nice . taste damn weird ! ): then after the taste was gone , took again . and its much more better (: then blow rings . nice man . its thick and cool ! hahahas . after that , walk to bus stop and took bus 12 back to era . and i was damn noisy la . cause i wanna go to the toilet ): ! then tahan for another 30 min . reach era . rush to the toilet . and then went to eat . and back to era . dota , cs , and audi . hahas . marcus is addicted to audi now . while brandon say its retarded ! ass him . will be going out on tuesday , friday and saturday . with the same co . and adeline sh too ! miss her so much la . gosh . the bestest sh/sist i ever had [L] .
today , went out at 8 plus 9 . went to meet the prawny . thought that after dinner , then slack awhile then go home le . but then was playing l4d 2 and dota . was too engross in it that we actually play till 3.10 am ! gosh , and he still gonna wake up at 5 later . bet he doesnt have to sleep already ;x HAHAHAS ! stupid korkor . rolfs . anyway , enjoy today luhs , actually wanted to go prawning today de . but cause of the dota . hahas ! never mind , other days ehs ? wow ! its a long post today man ;x but at least i post right ? (: time to upload pics too ! so long never upload pics already . shall upload that day when we shisha . enjoys !

alright , done with all pictures . HAHAHAS ! gonna go facebook and rot ;x nights everyone . enjoy uhh ! :D
someone is being such a dog man . gosh . i cant stand him , grow up and get a life la . walaos . didnt reply your sms then not happy with the people i mix with ? gosh . you can just jolly well fcuk off man (: cause i'm not short of guys/friends (: and your english or sms make me laugh out loud sial . damn hilarious :D

sick ):

2010-01-17T21:09:00.003+08:00

wow ! super long since i update my blog . was sort of lazy to blog anyway , but then now . was so bored at era . so i think i shall blog a little . photo will be upload when i'm free (: super sick too luhs . having flu , cough , sneezing and aching all over my body , dont even feel like eating . and thanks brandon for bringing down the flu medicine (: went to era at about 2 plus , then wait for adeline sh and ford to come . then when they reach , was so super duper lazy to talk all this lahs , cause was watching the lord of the ring , return of the king , LOL ! damn nice luhs . then after that , ford went home . rolfs . then adeline was like playing com . then jj came . fred was like disturbing me la . sad die . then slack till just now . play dota and audi . then send adeline to take bus . and now i'm up here , blogging . shall eat later . going home at last bus , meeting brandon bestfriend later on . they going drinking . shall slack there man .
hope to get well soon . super xinku luhs i swear . hate being sick . think people sick then spread to me . gosh . next time i must wear mask around , so i wont get sick . HAHAS ! am so uber bored now . meeting sh tomorrow and brandon . go out walk walk (: keep stay at era , damn bored luhs . anyway , new year is coming (: happy happy happy ! $$$ coming :D HAHAS ! dont know what to blog le . so shall stop here . thanks sh for accompany me today , and that i didnt talk much to you . cause was super sick ehs ! ): love you sh ttm :D

HAHAHAS (:

2010-01-11T17:24:00.004+08:00

i find my blog damn hilarious sial . yesterday after i post the post . all come and tag . and talk so much craps . LOL ! wow , did i even offend them ? i dont think so . POST SO BIG at the forum sial . tsktsk . i got eyes to see to man . and for the young disgusting lady that say i stay bedok south , then you are wrong , i dont stay at block 29 (: try harder if you wanna be a stalker . and the rest that tag in the forum , please brush up your english man , and those in my tag board . brush up your english too man (: hahas . let me slowly see who need to brush up their english :D

sjj: how much one night ? i want piak your cheesepie dip dip
mosmos: want go jaybee with me not? i want fr your neh neh pork chops
RyuShinEX: solo simi lj? chiu wan gum 1000 edmwers lj?
Cheesefries: http://forums.hardwarezone.com.sg/showthread.php?t=2633622
Cheesefries: want touch my kkj?~
AstoxicAsCanBe: sho ugly still psot ur peekture online
AstoxicAsCanBe: just now l tod u is chiobu so l cum ur blork now l see ur face le is limp kkj
BGSS: hi i knw where u stay [me: know where i stay then ? wanna come find me ? (: ]
thurzmilktoast55: wad la hor
thurzmilktoast55: we r just some horny guy la hor
BTSS: moi love chiu dip dip dip!
someone used my name: hi guys! 1 shot 40/ unlimited shot 80.. no room included [ me: no life suckers . LOL ! grow up man (: ]
Bang Bus: You all cup ahlian bocup me I so sad!! http://cbox.ws/?n=5-4894-h4wfx5
laO_maOwang: hie .. i wann sae.. weiwEi chiu ish brave ger ... i will oways support u !
laO_maOwang: if weiwei need sarpok, oways can call me, cos i oso feel like weiwei , wan go SOLO !
Zai Xiang: Ford: Please keep quiet. 98914534 is my number if you wish to confront me I will be waiting for you [me: how old liaos . tsktsk . sengkang anchorvale drive seh , wow]

still got so many more . i'm just so lazy to keep copy and paste . i'm laughing right now man . seeing all this tag . HAHAHAS ! anyway x.drea sist , how do you report police uhh ? to this kind of people ? cool man . i wanna see their web to toh (: HAHAHAS . no life suckers . so young punks uhh ? grow up please :D dont act like a small kids anymore . have a life luhs , rather than spamming other people blog . lmaos . and i dont entertain dogs like all (: LOOK AT THEIR ENGLISH , OMG MAN . please go and brush up your english alright ? (: byes suckers .

and ya , slowstatic , please dont ss the top part only la . HAHAHAS ! ss the whole blog . better right ? laughs , i'm stalking in that forum , its so funny inside man , all the girls inside all look like despo kueh sial ;x opps . HAHAS ! and those dogs are not tagging anymore ?! awww , sad case .

everything my fault alright ?

2010-01-10T17:06:00.003+08:00

i ng weiwei , swear that from today onwards , i will fcuk care everything la . whose problems or stuff , just dont need to come tell me la . i now solo la hors . no friends also can survive lahs , dont have to come text me or what lahs , cause i wont reply one . just fcuk off from me , and go do your own stuff . since all wanna like that right ? fine then , i keep my mouth shut from now on lahs . steady de . friends all for what ? steady ki lan la hors . friends come gum lj la . ccb . i've enough of all this liaos lahs . all wanna attitude , attitude all you want , wanna kp . go kp all you want la hors . so listen carefully uhh . FROM TODAY ONWARDS , ALL JUST FCUK OFF . I OWNSELF SOLO LA HORS . CCB .

the only people i will contact with is the era de , adeline and ford bahs . the rest , jolly well fcuk off le . all wanna kan , kan nia la . -.-''

sigh ):

2010-01-10T01:37:00.002+08:00

anyway , before i blog , happy birthday to samuel korkor (: may your wish all come true alright ?! (: and you didnt reply my text when i send you happy birthday . so dao !

alright , what i wanna say , thing are getting out of hands . and it seems that everything i do . its a mistake . and maybe i shouldnt complain stuff out , even if i have to tolerate , i think i must just keep my mouth shut . not gonna complain stuff anymore , even if i get pissed . gonna just mia everyone or everything , even to neglect my blog and facebook soon . cause whatever i post . its like so useless . and even if i post out . things will get wrong again . so ya , i will just roughly go through stuff . and that's it . friends comes and goes . which are the real friends of yours ? which are not ? who is the one using you . and who are not ? you simply wont know . just cause of small problems , break ties all this ? did you have enough than i do ? or what ? i really have enough of all this shyts man . i thought going back era , will make me better . or i might learn more things . but then , not that true . its like , i have lost another friend . cause of a fcuking SMALL problem . wtf is going wrong here man ? gosh gosh gosh . i just cant simply understand it man . fine . so be it man . i'm tired of all this already , so i dont wish to care anymore . but still you know i will still treat you as a very good friend of mine . that's all i've to say man . sigh .

sometimes , changing to be good . its still not that good . nor neither you can change back as fast as you can . what is needed for us is time , and the company that you hang out with , i'm thinking of getting to be good . back to study and work . its time to grow up now . and its still not too late for me to change back and to study all this . i've to learn this is because of my future . not cause i scare or what . now without money = die . so what's the point of being a gangster ? not that gangster are not good . but it depends . you also have to grow up . not to find trouble . but to work . i finally understand all this stuff . and i wont repeat my mistake again . though i can have fun , but then , i will have more fun without anyone (: just some good friends of mine . and its enough . i'm still in the process of changing . so anyone who is not happy with me , jolly well fcuk off then (: cause i dont entertain lame stuff or childish acts :D

i'm happy with the life i'm now . but sometimes , it really sucks to the core . 55% to me , is life sucks . 45% is that i'm happy with it now (: at least i'm more happy with the way i'm now . so not that bad . and thanks adeline , era peeps . for staying by my side . accompany me in era . nor ton . thanks to have those good friend like you all [era peeps] (: and thanks sweetheart too . for being there too . when i need a listening ear (: love you man ! see you tomorrow alright ? (:

what do we mean to our friends ?

2010-01-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

i dont know what i wanna post either , just trying to keep this blog alive . well . been going era for the past few days . not wanting to go anywhere , or talk much with people . just feel like being alone to play com , nor be with my sweetheart only . cause i only can talk to her with my stuff . maybe i'm starting to change again , to be better ? (: cause i'm bored of last time stuff and those shyts already . being so good to people . and get nothing in return . end up . the one who suffer is me . i will try to learn to be good . better than hanging outside , and letting others to come find me trouble . now adays , i'm trouble-free (: glad that i've been good these few days ! *clapclap* shall start to find job soon too ehs ? cause keep short of money usage too . and ya , so might find a job on monday-friday , then weekends , go era slack :D good idea uhh ? shall not hang out so often too man . like i say , the new year start , = to the new start for me , a new me , a new life (: will upload pics soon , sorry for dragging , cause was super duper tired now . and tomorrow shall get to era too (: meet gary didi i think ! he today fcuking ps me there ): idiot didi . rolfs . and ya , that's all i wanna say , thanks those peeps , who changed my life . teaches me new stuff . and learn to be peacefull . thanks alot ehs ? :D and thanks sh & ch , for meeting me for these past few days . and joke around together . lets play L4D tomorrow ch ! :D the new maps ! hahahas ! nights peepos ! gonna head off to bed , promise will upload pics soon , and will take more pics ! (:

bored

2010-01-05T05:47:00.002+08:00

was a boring day man . today was a fuckup day . i swear . woke up at 7 , then went to bathe , reach era at 8 plus . then after that , heard adeline sh got stuff . then saw jj , mark . butch , ch , ade , ford . ford came after me . then brandon awhile later came . followed by shawn , cause grant was at era . and ch was pissed with him . well . then blablabla . and things got settle . hate grant man . gosh . then about 11 plus 12 . ch went off home . and adeline sh went to his house . cause sh doesnt wanna go back home . so yeah . went up era after that , and went to audi . then audi disconnect . then went to l4d . first play with brandon they all . then after that , play with my korkor . that stupid prawn . then after that , ch called . some stuff happen . went down see . then nothing . then went to the prata shop . meet brandon bestfriend there . and then walk to bestfriend house there . to take a cab . and reach home less than 10 min . on msn with bestfriend , ford and some fellows . until now . was like 2hr30+min already . now going off to bed man . gonna fetch adeline tomorrow after school and then go out with friends . and when will i not get into troubles anymore ? gosh , this year . i swear i'm not gonna fcuking find problems for me . nor problems come find me man -.-'' nights blogger and peeps . sorry readers that i didnt post lately . lazy to post as house com was lag . and will update photo soon alright ? (: those retarded pictures i have at era . will be post up soon . the retarded face of brandon , shawn and mark . LOL ! hahahas . anyway , thanks those people for those fun , cheering and joy for the past few days . and thanks sh , for being with me for the past few days too ! love you ttm man ;luv

new me (:

2010-01-03T22:35:00.003+08:00

sigh , bored this few days . have been slacking at era for the past few weeks . well . so tired up . then today went home . shall stay at home today . as tomorrow afternoon have to go fetch adeline sh after school . lazy girl . still need people go fetch you after school . rolfs . then after that , might be going to era . sigh . things are not going the way i want again . another mistake out of me . shall start to change to be good . and start to find a job now . cause like i say , new year , new life , new me , new day (: yeah , think positive man ! time will heal my wounds . and ya , slowly start to change for now . anyway , yesterday wasnt in a very good mood . heard some name i dont feel like listening . and ya , start to think back of the past too ehs ? shall slowly give up everything . and hang out with my new group . hahs ! thanks brandon ehs , for being there , to try to cheer me up . i love this group ttm alright ? (: well , and thanks adeline sh , for pei-ing me ton for this 3 days . awww . i love you ttm sweetheart ! may we wont quarrel again alright ? and lastly , thanks ford . for the christmas present . and thanks for cheering me up too . when you know you cant even cheer me up . up there right ? i got say le hors . hmm . i got lots of retarded pics in my phone man . lazy to blog man . HAHAS ! mark retarded pics . brandon and shawn want . HAHAS ! laugh my ass off . lazy blog already , shall go nua now (: anything text me . might not blog that often already . hahs ! and tomorrow i need to go cut my hair . gosh . today overslept ! ):

sigh ):

2010-01-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

back to posting . wasnt in the good mood yesterday . went to tamp kr meet adeline sh and beebee . then talk to beebee . then drea and fel sist wanna meet . so talk to beebee half way , both bitch came . then continue talk to beebee . then lazy elaborate le . 12 . cab to boat quay . and then the guys are at chinatown . never mind , we wait for cab and go over to the pearl centre . wtf man . that place like so kuku la . then went up the 4th floor . and they went in the toilet to find huiyee and sotplug . adeline and me was sitting outside . then talk to sh about stuff . and we both agree on it . so wanted to cab back . then slack awhile . and saw ford , xab , vance they all came . talk to xab , ford and pohleung monkey . hahahas ! after that , 2 plus , all start to change place . then went to wait for cab , and ford pei me and adeline to wait for cab to go siglap there . then wait for like damn fcuking long la can . then finally got a cab . and cab to siglap . morning then cab to adeline house . and sleep till now . later going down era there . to find brandon there . hahas . anyway ! happy new year to everybody ! :D

to say the truth , my existance towards you all . its nothing , the way i see you all yesterday , i know the answer already . without me . its still the same . you guys can play together . well . so be it then . i've given up hope in everything already . and my mind is made up . i will leave the whole group (: sigh .

its the end of everything

2009-12-30T04:47:00.002+08:00

just talk things out with felicia and ford . and yeah , finally . everything its gonna put to an end . yeah , quarrel with them . and ya , dont feel that good . dont even have someone to talk to now . or someone to advise me now . all i can do now is to shagg or cry . i have enough already . who else care ? nahhs , no one man . in that group . its like whether i with them or not . its still the same . they can happily go enjoy and play . but what about me ? stop asking me to think of how you all feels alright ? how you all feels too ? can't you all just put yourself in my shoes ? after i mia , who ask me out ? even if got , how many times only ? i really think i've enough , i wanna clean break with you all . every single one of you . after talking things out . its really hurts me , the memories , the pictures . those post . its really make me feel like crying . somehow , i even feel like puting an end to my life . its like i've completely lose another part of my life . life is just like a game . i cant do anything . i can hold on to the happiness that i want . but then . sadness do keep come upon it . my heart is numb , my body is numb , every parts of me is numb , i cant really feel the pain anymore . and its like i've start to changed to be another person . people ask . where's the weiwei i knew ? where is the cheerful weiwei gone to ? well . i can say , its all gone . i've changed , so have you guys . you all made me to change to who i'm now . not me . i do really still care almost every single one of you all . especially felicia , drea , sotplug , vance , xab . but then , it seems like . i must learn to let go of it now . after talking to felicia and ford . i really totally break down , what's the point for me to voice things out when i know it isnt gonna happen or turn back to the way it was ? even if i did really voice it out . can it turn to the time when i just knew you all ? those laughter and joy ? no . the answer is no . it will still be the same . who else treat me important in the group ? none (: and that's what i see . so yeah , after new year eve celebration , i will make a clean break . and i will delete all contacts . and everything . i will start a new fresh , a new year . a new group of friends ? and a new job . a new me too . i will try hard to even give up everything . even if it really make me break down again to forget you guys . i still will try hard on it . cause i dont want to be so miserable again . i dont want to always be in sadness . i wanna stay happy too . like what you guys are doing now . so yeah , that's my final decision . take care everyone . last day we meet will be on thursday , new year eve (: make this day the last day , to enjoy . and a happy last memory for me . thanks .

Disappointment

2009-12-29T09:59:00.003+08:00

alright , i just came back to blog as i just feel so fcuk up . reach home just now . suppose to be home earlier , like about 7 plus ? cause of a fcuking dog . which make me reach home late . argh fcuk . i would like to tell a story out to everyone . and see whether what do you guys think alright ? human A is a long friend of mine . and she's very close to me . human B is a friend of mine which i knew a month plus ago .

once human B step in my life , everything change , all my closest one , start to drift from me . i dont know why either . and now . human B and human A look damn close . then today , i ask human A whether can go her house , then at first she say ok . then next min , she told me say her mum will come back home anytime , so i didnt go . then human B say he will stay at era with me . cause i ask him if not we stay at era la . then he say ok . after that , when i was lying in the pantry , human B took human A bag , and i find it weird already , cause human B pangseh me once before . then i ask him , you going human A house of stay at era . then human B told me say he going human A house and sleep . so i was like what the fcuk . you at first tell me say you wanna stay at era . and now ? and i was so pissed that i disown him and ask him to fcuk off . seriously . i dont need this kind of friends la . so you can jolly well fcuk off man . i'm not short of friends (: or a son , or whatever shyts ! and i just cab back and send a sms to human A to tell her to pass the msg to human B . and i also told human A that i dont know what she wants . she at first say that her house cant go . and complain to me about human B so many stuff . and end up lehs ? i dont know la . just fcuk it man . seriously . i can say is that , you are also drifting off away from me soon . you just dont get what i mean . and what i told you before . anyway , human A = adeline , and human B = beebee .

to adeline : this is the last post i shall write to you . whether you got read it or not . i dont give a damn now . and from today on , you dont have to complain to me what beebee done wrong . since he's much more important than me right now . and dont tell me no . cause after i send the last sms to you . you didnt even reply . cause you dont know what you wanna say right ? you are mute right ? cause what i say , is the truth . and it seems like he have taken over my place . so what's the point of us being so close now ? he's the one who always meet you . go out with you . ask him to be your sh lo (: simple . i dont care you see this , you wanna cry or what , cause my heart is numb already . put yourself in my shoe lahs , and you will know how i feel now . seriously . you changed alot . after i brought him down here . and i fcuking regret bringing him down to you guys . and i can tell you . now in this post . or in your face . dont ever ask him to come down era anymore . if you wanna come , dont bring him over . cause i dont wanna see his fcuking face there anymore . the choice is yours , either you have him , if not me (: simple . cause i know your answer will be him (: so good bye ! thanks for the past happiness you have given , and the huge disappointment too :D and ya , think whether you wanna continue the sh we are anot . think carefully before you made any choices . no = no more sh , no more friends . yes = no more beebee , but still continue sh , but the feeling will be different (:

to beebee : ehs , i now fcuking tell you straight in your face lahs hors . you are fcuking disown man ! i dont need a son like you lahs hors . you can fcuking fcuk off from my life man . i dont care you wanna cry or emo or cut yourself . go ahead man . fcuking regret knowing you . and bring you down to know so many people la hors . ehs , you fcuking fcuk off from era also lahs , i will tell everyone in era about it man . you are such a . . . . asshole man . just jolly well fcuk off from my sight man . cause the more i see you , the more i hate you man . you make me feel so disgust ! you are worst than your brother . and i dont know whether you did steal my phone anot la hors . alot of people tell me so la . if i know its you who steal my stuff . i make sure i give you hell man . not happy with me , call people down then . i fcuking hate you to the core man , and dont ever call me mummy again lahs . cause its so disgraceful to have a son like you . do whatever you want , smoke , scold vulgarities or what , go ahead lahs , just faster go and die better (: bye asshole !

sians , not feeling so well too ):

2009-12-27T00:49:00.002+08:00

currently now at era . well . was like so bored la . the group is not here . only mark , JJ are here . hmm . somehow , i do miss back that group now . maybe cause this group is not here ? to make me laughs bahs . hahs ! i keep having random mood this few days . dont feel like sms-ing nor answer calls . argh ! just talk to people on msn or facebook . line gonna cut off either today or later on bahs . cause i havent return the bill for last month x.x so anything sms me . getting sick and tired of all this now . might go find a job next month , then after that , wont meet anyone anymore ? or just through sms only . just feeling so so so terribly down . sigh . anyone free , add me on msn and chat with me ehs ! angelngweiqin@hotmail.com . sign off now . lazy to post too . waiting for brandon to come back on jan 1st (: faster come back you this joker !

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE (:

2009-12-25T18:22:00.002+08:00

hoho , merry christmas everyone . i'm back to blog ! well . this year christmas sucks man ! argh . didnt have place to go . and era was close . actually got place go . but is i dont wanna go . cause there only 4 people i talk to . so dont wish to go over . hmm , sorry ehs . this few days , was either at era or home , ton with adeline sweetheart on the 23 . rolfs . love die you sh (: even thought this year christmas sucks , i bet new year will be fun . hope so la . hmm . tomorrow going boat quay ): aww . now they tell me should be . rolfs . means not confirm yet now . so be it . hahs ! i dont know what to post already . somehow feel like neglecting my blog . so bye peeps !
wish you all enjoy a very enjoyable christmas (:

sigh !

2009-12-23T22:46:00.002+08:00

wasn't in good mood now . mood was totally screwed ! era stuff , audi stuff , and my pay stuff . wtf right ?! and gonna rush home later . to send my cousin off back to canada ): argh ! totally sucks today . sigh ! went to work today at 3 plus , then the boss call up halfway and say no work . wtf . and he told us that 8 will transfer the pay over . till now . its already almost 11 , and he told us that he's still busy , and after 1 am then can transfer ): sad die me sial . then just now some stuff happen in era , shall not elabrate it too . sigh ! totally pissed . wanted to log in audi to play awhile . and then to make my mood better . but then end up got problems inside audi . was like so fcuk up la ): well . totally mood ruined , just acting a fake smile infront of everyone . sigh ! dont wanna blog already . off com and off to pantry to rest . hais ~

bored ):

2009-12-23T04:30:00.002+08:00

woi ! i just woke up . damn tired sial . then sms with ford , x.drea and brandon . gosh . later i still have to go work man . omg , but then at least got pay (: hahs . and the stupid brandon is asking me to go out in the morning 7am , when there's sunlight later ! he's such faggot man ! hahas , cause he call me a bimbo , later i upload his face and let everyone see ;x LOL ! and i'm seriously still damn tired la ! hmm . bored bored bored . i upload the pics now :D Look here brandon ! here's ur pictures (:

Hi brandon . LOL ! Dont scold me if you saw this . faggot ;x LOL !

madness in me (:

2009-12-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

rolfs . back to post (: been going era this few days . alone ! (: hahas . its quite fun to be alone in era . and hang out with those dudes around in era . hahas . they are being a joker man ! well . back to post of what i wanna say . well . still not sure wanna go where . hmm , 24 , maybe morning going meet ngyaya , then see night if anyone jio me go countdown for christmas . but yeah , i bet there's none (: well . its i myself who choose this path (: and ya , continue . on the 25 , meeting ngyaya again too . night go drink i guess . with her boyf that group . and ya , morning go back sleep . then 26 . going next stop then dolphin to drink . and its with ngyaya again and xab , ford and not sure le . well . gonna be damn tired this few days ehs . and been drinking this few days too . argh ! better drink till i die . hahas ! well . lazy to blog le . and i really do somehow regret what i've done man . sigh !

to iva lbb ;
okok , i free i will go fetch you after school de . cause your school so near to my house (: well . lets find a job together bahs (: pass time fast too . and it might make me feel more happy . hmm , take care darling . meet up soon ! ;luv

fcuk up

2009-12-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

argh ! my mood was like so fcukup now . cant get everything right . and now . dont even know wanna go where . adeline is still sleeping . and i'm getting so bloody moodswing man . cant control my temper . my mood . argh ! aunt is kpkb-ing at me . then keep feel irritated . gosh , i'll just burst my brain better . feel like meeting my dearest rainbow later . i need to break down for awhile . ya , decided to mia . and have just talk to felicia and x.ken . maybe i really should just mia . so stop asking me , dont mia from who or who . or what wanna mia . if not i really will get damn pissed off . read carfully this line . and dont ask me ! i wanna mia from who . its for me to say . not you or whoever . i just need a break ~ argh . feeling so terrible inside . hais . wish to go out play and enjoy alone . cause it might make me feel better bahs . maybe not wanting to blog already . pointless to blog now . cause inside me , its breaking me . upset me . and hurting me ): no one knows bahs . so just dont come and irritate me , fan me or many other more to make me pissed for now . till i'm totally okay . hais ~

i'm still trying hard to give up

2009-12-20T01:18:00.002+08:00

on the 18th , went to give out flyers at amk , and ya , was not in the good mood . cause the boss say wednesday then can get pay -.- from friday till wednesday . wtf sial . then was like finding money , as was going boat quay to meet yaya , clarissa and the rest . then went to amk hub , saw vance bestie . followed by x.bee and the girlf , then felicia and drea , mood starting to get low . and ya , then the whole group came , even sotplug . seems like the whole group are still sooo good . so yeah , mood down , everything down , went off to boat quay . drink and drink and dont feel like talking . all i do was to sms nia . till very long , then play games with yaya . then after that , went back . not feeling that well . and then reach home at 4 , from 11 drink till 4 . thinking whether to go on the 26 not . hais . cause the group are there . guess i have to be strong from now on . i dont have to always rely on people . cause i know i cant rely them for long . i may be too harsh at times , but then sometimes , i mustn't be too soft hearted le . tomorrow still gonn work ! argh ! at amk again . meeting few friends there , but ya , its my own friend , not theirs . LOL ! and ya , gonna go sleep now. been thinking too much all this days . till my head hurts alot ):

i keep all those memories inside me , but then , leaving them , it hurts me inside . this is the group that i truely treasure . but now , i'll put it to an end . i still remember ford ask me a question , name out everyone in the group from the most important to the least important . somehow . i cant really name it out . because the rest are equally the same important . i still remember how i know them till now when i quarrel with them , from how much they dote me last time till now like this . i dont know what's happening to myself . i'm like giving up myself now . who else will care ? got . my jie nia . ngyaya . she wont hurt me like how the rest hurt me . or to make me upset . i really wanna give up le . i'm tired already . i'm falling already . how long i have hang out with this group ? how much have i see the changes in them . how long must i torture myself in this situation ? how much tears i must put in ? i'm very very sick and tired le . i just wish , no one care about me , no one sms me or call me . no one bother about me , unless i wanna sms or find that person . enjoy with friends is the best thing ever , joy and laughter . but when sadness come , you are the only one who is gonna suffer . no one will be closer to you unless they are your true sister/brother .

yesterday's the day (:

2009-12-17T16:40:00.004+08:00

went to meet xab , ford at tampines yesterday at 6 plus , then went to walk and then went in to the cut hair shop . and then ford went to wash his hair , then follow by xab , then saw his naked face ;x LOL ! hahas , then after that , me , ade , ford and beebee went to eat , then xab call ford , and then came over to find us . cause he dulan liaos . then after eating , went to smoke and cab to bq (: meet up with yaya and peggy (: then went up 9bar , and drink . after that , pool too . then start to get bored . then went to play the touch screen game , then smoke . drink 3 jug , 1 tower . then ford and xab seh , then we girls gonna pull them , rolfs . then send ford to take cab first . then xab then we girls (: reach adeline house downstairs , find beebee then go up ade house and sleep (: now at ade house , going out soon . rolfs . maybe going era . and ya , going bathe soon now (:

ford face like c0ck ehs ;x LOLOL !

what should i do ?

2009-12-16T14:14:00.014+08:00

well , been working for these few days at amk . giving out flyers . and thinking whether to work that job not . for me , i have to make a very big consider . and adeline too . later still gonna go amk there give out flyers . hais , by this week , the whole amk block gonna give finish , wtf right ? its not possible lo . hais , getting more shagg , more bad temper , more attitude easily le . what's wrong with me ? i really hate the me now . trying hard to think . and what i wanna do . keep things in me only . and not wanting to say out . but then , some of the things i have already say out , and i'm bored of seeing all this le . lazy to post , will upload pics bahs . just to say , maybe i'm not the old me anymore . some of you make me change , and ya , everyone do change too . hais , off to pics .

end of everything (: thanks .

drifted (: and say good bye :D

2009-12-16T03:19:00.003+08:00

back to post , i know i didnt post for alot of days . but then , now decided to post some post for some people ? hmm , short and simple . cause i'm sooo tired .

To sotplug laopo : well . i dont care anything anymore . do what you wanna do or think . say whatever you wanna say . attitude all you want . i dont give a damn on it now anymore . i've enough of this group le . so take care (:

To felicia darling : well darling , hmm , things are different already , like what we think before . i'm tired of all this already . i've enough of all those attitude . all those craps . so dont shagg le alright ? stay happy will be better (: and last long with vance bestie uhh (:

To vance bestie : well bestie , sorry for giving attitude at times . and sorry for those nonsense that i've given , and those disappointment too . but then , now i'm a grown up . and i know how to think already . so ya , dont have to worried about me , or maybe not ? hmm , thanks for those advise you told me last time , and last long with felicia too (: bestie always ehs ?

To hanwei : ya , you this molehan , rolfs . anyway thanks for the concern too ehs . just last long with drea too (: dont get anymore stupid things again le uhh . and not all things have to be steady . you wont know when your friends might hai you . not this group . but others ?

To xiaodrea : ya , we may not be that close already , but then just last long with molehan :D

To xiaoken : ehs botak . dont know what to say to you also . have girlf right ? last long uhh (: hahas . and dont always so gl and bad temper le luhs . smile (:

To pohleung : monkey, going in hostel le right , take care when inside uhh , even though not that close to you . but then at least still post (: hmm , dont like monkey le luhs , hahas . even though it may be funny . LOL . take care when you are in hostel alright , anything sms me bahs . (:

The below post are the one who is most close to me now . so ya , who i will still meet them out sometimes and join them .

To adeline sh : sh , thanks for being there for me for the past few days . thanks for being there for me when i'm down , pissed or what . even thought sometimes i do will angry you for some stupid stuff you did . but then you are the closest to me after all . we been through together for those happy stuff or sadness stuff . up and down too . thick and thin , and we always h2h talk with me , and listen to me on what i kpkb on (: love you ttm la alright ?! sh forever <3>

To beebee : you can do what ever you want now . i dont care anymore . what i told you today , you can jolly well forget about it bahs , i wont care much on you le . do what ever you want , so just forget it . even thought i do dote on you alot . but disappointment also alot . not once , but alot of times . so that's all i gonna say about you .

To ford : well . sometimes i do think that you did change from bad to worst . and not getting any better . your attitude , and you keep shagg , did you change alot ? think back . and you will know . i dont wanna tell you much too . you should know what i'm talking about . and ya , thought you are good , kind and steady , but then you should know your attitude , still not that good . its getting from bad to worst . ya , and then i think you are too over playful . you dont know when its the time to play , and when its not the time to play . and sometimes , you also too over confident that you will get what you want , or maybe to say that sometimes you might be too hao lian over things . and ya , that one you should change . and sometimes , you should change to be like not so childish at times , or to irritate . i tell you all this cause to see whether what bad points you have . so think bahs , if you wanna change not . people say you cause they want you to change , and what's good and bad . alright , that's all .

To xab : anyway cheer up bahs , and thanks too for cheering me up at times when i dont have the mood . and even i give you attitude , you still will not take it to heart . hmm . thanks alot luhs (: