hais

well , here to post again .
hmmm , and there's also one thing .
i think i shall give up le .
and then you shall last long with her alright ?
i dont wanna care so much le .
i just wanna pass my days happily .
hahhas , cause i dont know when i wont wanna come era anymore .
maybe soon ? or maybe i'll just leave without a word .
thanks for entertaining me last few days , and even when we broke up .
and its like you starting to avoid me le . doesnt wanna talk to me like this .
i can feel it . and my 6th sense are always right .
but then hope you still talk to me as a normal friend uhh ?
hais . maybe i shouldnt even step in era , then i wont have know you .
and i wont be that shagg , but still . i'm happy that i'va given up on you a little now .
hahas , and i wont cry for you anymore . cause i think its worthless .
so i shall give up now and start anew with my life .
i dont want to continue this life anymore . this shagg life . i'm more shagg when i'm with you .
when i start to love you . but when i was with kids .
i wont be like this . cause i know he will treat me better .
everyone told me that you are more better than him , you suits me more .
but i think that kids suits me more than you . cause he really know me more than you .
hais , but then why will i love you ? i think i'm so stupid . hais .
but still , thanks for last time . that you make me smile . no matter what .
hope that you will stop to avoiding me can le . that all bahs (:

hohoho

well , hahahas , today was not a very fun day too .
hmmm , went to era at 6 . then 6 plus to 7 then reach there .
after i reach there , went to lp . cause all was waiting le .
find sotplug first , then ask all at era to attend my lp .
hahahas , 1st tried jiu pass le :D hahahahas ! and 1st time got a audi cpl who can tag heart and choing for me . that was nice uhh . 1st time got a saffron ring . OMG ! damn happy lahs .
and that silly audi cpl of mine want choing to aster . cause that time i say i want aster . but i dont want him to choing le lahs . as i can get a cpl who can give me this ring , i'm already very happy le . so its okay de :D he wanna get aster before this month ends x.x isnt he crazy ? LOL .!
well , anyway , he's a good audi cpl . but then , sometimes , he dont know when the time to talk , when not to nia , a bit too chatty too uhh ! hahahas , but at least he did try to change le .
well , thats good enough (: MR SADDIST , POST FOR YOU LE LAHS ! happy ? LOL ! my 20 nuggets uhh ! that's what he own me (: laughs !

well , after lp , then went to play awhile . till just now , was a little bit sick .
think i'm starting to fall sick le . hais . sadded ! OMG ! hate to fall sick sial .
cause i will be more pekcek than now . as now my attitude already damn moodless le .
if sick , i think more worst le lorr . sad die me sial T.T hais . hope wont be so sick bahs .
RAWRS ! will post all pic in blog , all weddings and lp . hahahas , when i'm at my aunt house bahs . then i shall upload all pics (: dont worry , got maiko de , yinqi (nuer) and mine . woots .
all our wedding and lp :D i guess . laughs !

now also nothing to do . abit feeling pekcek le . plus cold x.x
hais , i mai fall sick lahs . then somemore , heard that my precious laopo got beat by her daddy .
then call her , bo pick up . abit worry for her man ! hais . hope she's fine uhh .
hais , tomorrow she wanna pon school . hais , better study well luhs laopo x3 hmmm .
and now . i'm doing nothing . waiting to be lvl 31 (: hahahhas ! soon , cause now 90% le .
woots ! happy lahs , gonna be main le . heeshees ! wellwell , i'm missing him now .
ahhhh , cant keep my eyes off him , never mind x.x forget it . mai post le x.x

hais

hais , damn fcuking no mood already , morning daddy came back and kpkb .
wanna bring me to school . but i told him straight that i dont want to study anymore .
think my whole family must be very upset le bahs . hais . i know i'm so stupid to give up my studies .
but then i really dont wish to study le . hais . dont force me to do those i dont want de lahs !
then daddy was like damn upset too . hais , his leg pain , still have to come over .
i really wanna study well and get the cert . but i will try alright ?
hais . really felt damn shagg . and worst still . things keep turning round my head . and as if its gonna explode . ahhhhhhhhh , damn stress up and shagg man ! i really dont know what to do .
hais , msg kids and tell him about it . i know i shouldnt msg him too . cause is like he's meeting his gf , and yet i'm like trying to disturb him . or maybe make his mood down . hais .
but there's really no one that i think i can talk to when i'm feeling shagg . i cant even say out to kids too . i also dont know why .
so msg maiko . and tell her lots of stuff . she's the other one that i can speak out easily to with .
no matter what xin shi i have , i can speak it out easily with . maybe she can communicate well with me ? that's why i felt more relieve when speaking to her ? hais .
i just dont know . i just felt damn shagg now . really . also dont know what really am i shagg of ?
familys , school , relationship or ? i just dont know .
hais , family already now damn shagg le , school also . now also shagg about relationship stuff .
hais , just why am i so sway ? cant always do things right ?
hais , indeed , i can say that i still miss him , but what's the point ?
hmmm , like people always says , loving someone is easily , but giving up someone is hard .
indeed it is , hais .
why did i like you ? why did i forget him so easily and fall for you ?
i still dont know . i keep asking myself all this .
hais , but i still cant get the answer . never mind , i dont wanna keep stress myself up .
maybe really one day , i mia , it will be better . but i wont mia my jie or kids de .
so dont worry the both of you :D hmmm , just wanna be alone sometimes .
if the more i stress , i scare i will do some wrong things to let me get of of those stress .
so i dont wish to think much more too . i dont wanna stress myself too .
so never mind , hais , just blog out a little of my stuff out to make me feel alittle better , hais .
blog too much out also not good . so shall blog alittle . hmmm .
thanks all who really cares about me . who treat me well . sometimes i know my attitude sucks , but i'm sorry alright ?

x.x

ahhhhhhhh , bored die me man ! RAWRS !
now still at era , ton yesterday .
then just now sleep awhile . as later going home change all this then come down again .
cause antidote nnd xiaored they all coming down . got things to talk uhh !
hahahas ! hmmm , lac bahs all :D dont always not happy not happy luhs !
LOLOL , i ownself also . laughs ! still dare say x.x
hmmm , yesterday was in a very good mood . but then some paople are still there to spoilt my mood . shagggggggg , make me pissed the whole fcuking day . from night 7 plus start .
was damn hyper at first . after that spoilt mood le x.x AHHHHHHHHHHH , jitao sio all th way .
never mind , let bygone be bygone :D
i'm not that xiaoqi too mahs . so forget it .
hmmm , yesterday spend alot sial ! got money le jiu spend all ! OMFGZXCZXC ! 100 lehs .
song bo ! hahahas ! never mind , next time cant spend like this le ):
hmmm , kindda sians uhh ! want go audi le .
hais , yesterday kids msg me , and he was like damn sad on something , but idk what .
he say he's guilty . to somethings he do , that i dont want say cause might be his mimi .
but then suddenly he say about our past x.x and he also wanna cry .
but just to tell you that , no matter what , you can just tell me . i'll still be ur listening ear :D
dont feel sad , cheer up alright ? i'm still here , just that we doesnt have the tittle as that .
but still , i did miss the past . but then i will treasure the past memories that you gave me .
so you too ! cheer up alright ? hmmm , maybe you can find someone who might be better than me , who might treat you more good and obey to all your rules .
cause i dont think i can obey all the rules . even thought i did try , but its hard .
cuase this is what i'm . i'm sorry . but still , cheer up bahs , anything can sms or call me .
or even can call me out too de :D
and lastly , i'm still missing him , hais ! forget it . say so much also nothing will come out de .
so mai say le . keep it in my heart bahs :D might be better for everyone too .
but still , i'll still be waiting , till the day it took my breath away (: