hais

went to bunk yesterday .
then before that day , ton at alakia house .
hahs .
then go bunk , was damn tired can .
fall asleep at the sofa .
hmmm .
then when i wakie , saw kids nnd xiaosnow .
thought i was dreaming .
but its real .
was damn shagg when i saw him .
don't know what should i do .
mind was totally empty .
so i ask daryl up to smoke .
after that , went back to bunk .
then it was like he's sitting opp me .
was damn shagg at that point .
wanted to talk to him .
but i don't have the courage .
afraid that he might just scold me in front of those people , afraid that he might don't care me .
i'm just afraid of lots of things .
what can i do ?
just to keep looking at what he's doing .
hope he's well this few days .
it really hurts me to see him .
feel like crying at that point of time .
so when to play with xiaoren nnd the rest .
i don't even know what he's thinking .
just hope he know's that i still love him .

keep playing with xiaoren nnd the rest .
pei darling also . (emodan)
hais .
was soooo shagg yesterday .
then wait for jie to come .
then went to eat billy bombers .
eat till dulan .
cause i don't know how to cut the stupid chicken .
hahahahas .
then jie help me cut .
after eating , went back bunk find ren nnd hao .
hahahahas .
but kids not there le .
hais .
before i went to eat , was smoking .
then got police . xiaoren got caught .
then kids went up with cas .
nnd i just keep looking at him .
he was looking back but i don't know what he's looking at .
hope he really know that i have been noticeing him the whole day .
hais .
whether you are reading my blog still , i still wanna write out .
after that , kido came nnd talk to me while waiting for jie to come over .
he try to make me smile .
not bad of him luhs :D

then xiaoboi came up nnd ask kido to pei him . so i ask jie wait awhile at there nnd pei them .
at there talk alot .
hahahahhas . kido keep telling me jokes .
hmmm .
thanks alot :D
then went to find jie then off to cini play pool .
till 1 plus 2 then went home .
call ren chat till 3 plus , then offf to sleep .

today 7 plus pm then wakie .
off to jies yeye songka .
then came to xg play audi .
hmmm .
till now . later going home bahs .
waste all my money here .
LOL .
take care guys . later maybe meeting alakia .
from today on , will be my MIA day .
some of you i wont be contacting le .
so takecare uhh :D <3

and i still miss him so .
its hard for me to forget the past .
things keep turning in my mind .
keep wanting to cry .
but i just cant .
keep trying to control my tears .
just hope 1 day you will talk to me nnd be like the past .
but i know its impossible .
unless you really change nnd understand me .
iloveyou still precious . nothing gonna change my love for you ~ i swear ~
takecare <3