hais

hais , damn fcuking no mood already , morning daddy came back and kpkb .
wanna bring me to school . but i told him straight that i dont want to study anymore .
think my whole family must be very upset le bahs . hais . i know i'm so stupid to give up my studies .
but then i really dont wish to study le . hais . dont force me to do those i dont want de lahs !
then daddy was like damn upset too . hais , his leg pain , still have to come over .
i really wanna study well and get the cert . but i will try alright ?
hais . really felt damn shagg . and worst still . things keep turning round my head . and as if its gonna explode . ahhhhhhhhh , damn stress up and shagg man ! i really dont know what to do .
hais , msg kids and tell him about it . i know i shouldnt msg him too . cause is like he's meeting his gf , and yet i'm like trying to disturb him . or maybe make his mood down . hais .
but there's really no one that i think i can talk to when i'm feeling shagg . i cant even say out to kids too . i also dont know why .
so msg maiko . and tell her lots of stuff . she's the other one that i can speak out easily to with .
no matter what xin shi i have , i can speak it out easily with . maybe she can communicate well with me ? that's why i felt more relieve when speaking to her ? hais .
i just dont know . i just felt damn shagg now . really . also dont know what really am i shagg of ?
familys , school , relationship or ? i just dont know .
hais , family already now damn shagg le , school also . now also shagg about relationship stuff .
hais , just why am i so sway ? cant always do things right ?
hais , indeed , i can say that i still miss him , but what's the point ?
hmmm , like people always says , loving someone is easily , but giving up someone is hard .
indeed it is , hais .
why did i like you ? why did i forget him so easily and fall for you ?
i still dont know . i keep asking myself all this .
hais , but i still cant get the answer . never mind , i dont wanna keep stress myself up .
maybe really one day , i mia , it will be better . but i wont mia my jie or kids de .
so dont worry the both of you :D hmmm , just wanna be alone sometimes .
if the more i stress , i scare i will do some wrong things to let me get of of those stress .
so i dont wish to think much more too . i dont wanna stress myself too .
so never mind , hais , just blog out a little of my stuff out to make me feel alittle better , hais .
blog too much out also not good . so shall blog alittle . hmmm .
thanks all who really cares about me . who treat me well . sometimes i know my attitude sucks , but i'm sorry alright ?