hais

now , 2nd post , might as well post here , as i got nothing much to do .
well , here i have to say .
it all end here le . well . i have already feel shagg enough le . it really have to end ? i dont know .
last long with her bahs . if you really do love her so much that you wanna serious with her .
i will give you my blessing , but not her . hais . i just dont know what to do . seeing era , and you . i just feel damn shagg . i keep feel like crying out loud , alone . without anyone beside me .
just me , shouting out every thing i wanna say from the bottom of my heart .
and cry finish all the tears i have . and i think i will feel better . hais , i just hope that all this things are just a lie . and nothing much . all this are just a illusion to me . all this are just a dream , but then . i know it all true , i'm not dreaming . nor thinking much . hais . i make myself suffer so much , why . cause i do really love you alot . but then i think its time that i slowly let go . like what van and sotplug say . hais , i maybe should let go . i may say out that i wanna let go .
but i just cant . its really damn hard for me to give up . really . each time i think about you . i really feel like crying out . i drink yesterday , cry yesterday . but then i still feel like crying out . feel like just leave this fcuking world . a world which is so misery . i dont have to suffer so much , but for you . i think its worth it . really . hais , i just dont know what to do . all i know is , i need time bahs . just let me be alone , emo alone , shagg alone . i will be okay , after a few days .
anyway , thanks vanvan , x.ahboy , x.boy , x.shawn , x.ken and my precious laopo .
for being there for me yesterday , and accompany me the whole day . taking great care for me . really thanks alot . and thanks laopo . for yesterday . when i'm half drunk , you keep look after me . and pei me all the way . thanks .
and lastly , if yesterday i did give attitude to you all , i'm sorry alright ,
i really did enjoy my days with you all , you all didnt fail to make me smile (:
i will still love you , but maybe i need time to be back myself . hais ;cry