shagg

ok , back to posting . before i start saying what happen just now , i would like to wish my boyf , kele , happy birthday to you , and sorry that i cant attend ):
well . today slept till almost 8 then wakie . then was late for the kele bbq thingy . sadded ! sorry boyf , for not attending your bbq birthday celebration . wanted to go down de . but then aunt just nice came back , then have some argue with her . and then now , damn shagg about it . wondering , am i belong to this family ? she thinks i have found a new place to stay , and then say , if its a guy , he sure will yang you what , cause can take adventage of you . wtf sial . she always think that all my friends are bad , and no one is good . why is that so ? wtf sial . i cant take it in this house anymore . sometimes she can be very warm , and sometimes she can be cold . and now . she say i dont even know how to gan en , as i'm not blood related in this family . wtf . if its true that i'm not part of this family , i leave alright , and i will work and pay you all back the money , i dont want this type of life anymore , i want my freedom all this , and i cant tolorate you always say my friends are those baddie , or whatever le . last time you say i like prositude , i just keep quiet . and now , you say again in another way , meaning of cheap . and then still say i'm not part of the family ? i go change my surname lorr . ok ? i change my whole full name sua . i rather be alone that having you all to kpkb me lahs . fcuk it . do you all ever feel of how i felt ? you all always want me to think of what you all feel . then what about me ? am i transparents ? you all got stress , i dont ? hey , you adults can enjoy life soon le lehs , got money and can go where ever you all want , then now , i still gonna stress so much things , and work and money , why can you all adults put yourself in my shoes ? wtf is this fcuking world g0ing on ? i really cant take it le lahs , i make sure , today i wont be at home , i rather be alone outside , walk alone , even if no ones can come out pei me , i also mai stay at home , i swear lahs , fcuk it ! fcuk life , fcuk everything lahs !