i've got nothing to say.

am here to blog . for the sake of keeping it alive . i seriously dont know what i wanna blog too . been feeling either damn pissed or down these few days . i really dont know what i want , i do feel like being alone first , but why cant i have the time alone first ? why are you hurrying me ? why are you making me tiring ? i do want some break first . i'm gonna fall soon , i have my limits . not as if i will not contact you . i'm cold to you , cause i really need some time alone . i have enough of it already . enough of all this , enough of having those troubles that i gonna have to think . enough of the stress now . like whatever i did , wasnt good enough , like i'm a bad bad bad person in this world . i know it take 2 hands to clap . but , i really.cant.take.up.stress . i'm not blocking my blog only because i just dont want to . so yeah . i block my twits and fb only . not i wanna do till like that , its that , i just dont know . the more you force me . the more stress i'm , the more tired i'm . like that day when i'm with my friends . and yesterday the chat when we chat at msn . what do you want too ? are you getting tired too ? i'm thinking , is it more better when we be friends or like the past , or do we have to continue like this ? i do prefer you being back like that past , when we hang out together . and i can talk/share stuff with you . i dont know if i will make the wrong mistake . but then i still have to think . i dont know still . i'm stress , confused . give.me.some.time.please . i'm sorry for everything .

and sorry that i didnt wanna reply your msn or sms . i just wanna be alone first . alright ? sorry . hope you did view what i wanna say from my blog . i do need time for it now . i'm very sorry . sorry for my selfishness . sorry for making you so tired now . sigh . if you text me normal sms , i still will reply . but if its regarding this issue , or about settling the problem . then i wont reply bahs . sorry .