what's sister/brothership ?

yeah , what's sister/brothership ? so what if we know each other for like 8 years ? so what if you are my sister for 8 years ? but in your heart , if you dont treat me as 1 , it doesnt matter at all . cause this aint sistership . a true sistership will call you or text you at times , even a sms/call dont take you long , or meet up when free . even if you are so busy , you really treat him/her as a sister/brother , you sure will find a free time and meet for awhile right ? so are you doing this ? no . both sister of mine , and yet , both characteristic are so different . yeah , maybe cause she's same surname as me , more close to me than you . that's why ba . yeah , i can say it straight in your face . i prefer yaya more than you . i can say i treat her as a sister more . why ? because when she think of me or what , she will give me a call/sms . if not will jio me out when she's free . what about you ? free meet other friends only eh ? and dont even bothered about us ? eh what kind of sister is this ? yeah , a grow up girl shouldnt talk to a havent grow up girl [: and i didnt call ? last time i also got call . but did you ever call ? no . i also know what you're doing and hang out with who . not that i dont know . not only you can check on me . i also can . you more then dont know me or understand me . have you ever try to call me out and talk ? no . have you ever been there for me when i need someone ? no . ... See Morehave you ever treat me as a sist ? no . all is NONONO ! ya , she's much more better than you , i can say . seriously . you got the time , you rather meet other friends than us . so be it then . say whatever you wanna say , i give up alright ? take it as my fault , my bloody fault uhh [: you are the most clever and mature one , okay ? and i dont need yaya then i can survive or get a job . i know what is i.n.d.e.p.e.n.d.e.n.t , understand ? i dont care if you will come over to read my blog or not . cause i aint gonna keep my mouth shut already . and give anyone bully or kan .

i dont know what's wrong with me now adays , its me or other people ? maybe something wrong with other people too . mental problem sial . trying to control my mood , but then it seems like its worst . i really dont know how long can i take it sial . sigh . somehow i know i'm breaking apart soon . still life goes on , even if i break down so what ? life still have to go on what . right ? sigh , i hope , i wish , i'm someone who is stressfree , relax , and happy go lucky . maybe like the old me ? who always laugh , and wont dulan . sigh , or i wish i could return to a kid ? hais . i do miss everything in the past . how much my family pamper me , especially my grandma . but now ... hais . sometimes i feel that i'm being so unfinial . really . now she's like that , i didnt have time to visit her . sigh . argh , who will know the pain in me ? no one . who will know what i'm thinking ? no one , who will know what i want ? none . sigh . argh , i dont know what i wanna say already , tired . tired of every single things now . :')