hais

well , back to blog . today is a worst day for me .
went era at 2 plus 3 . then slack downstir then nightkids came over .
then awhile later , went up with dearest to play dota .
its so fun can . LOL . cause audi maintence . after dota , slack awhile again .
then went to find sotplug around era .
then she told me the small kid was here .
then went to talk with the little boy . then the little boy scold sotplug .
then after that foreverkid came over . then start to disiao him .
follow by eric , then was like disiao so long , then was too over le .
then decided to help this little boy . help alot too . but in the end , the one getting shagg .
is me , and the one crying , is me . ==
cause the litle boy was too gl , then all buay tahan him , he even hit my dearest .
and the coke splash on my dearest , but then , dearest still lun . and care for him .
then when the little boy was drinking coke , kid go and disturb him and the whole coke pour on his shirt . was like so pity him can ? cause he's a retart . that's why i side him .
and he's only 10 years old . hais , then tio bully till like this ?
cause he gl nia , then like that ?
after that , bring him to mac , to wash his shirt . i ask him to take off .
and i wash for him , and dry his clothes for him . then wear back .
then he was eating ice-cream , then after that , went out , while walking back to era ,
kid throw the ice-cream on his face , and it went inside his nose .
at first i thought why he like this . after that i know the reason .
cause the little boy spilt the mouth of ice-cream on kid , that's why .
then bring the little boy to toilet to wash up and talk to him nicely .
then he starting to listen and obey . finally he's listening .
then walk out from toilet , kid and eric they all are outside .
we told the little boy not to look at them , nor talk to them , nor laughs .
and he's doing it . and getting better . then eric they all wanna talk to him .
downstair era .then all wanted to beat him , but jess keep ask the little boy home .
then after that when the litle boy walk off , eric came over and say .
" now like this you happy le lahs . " hais , was like so ...... wtf can ?
then i was damn shagg , helping this retard boy , then now all the blame become mine .
then went to back alley there , cry out loud . cause i really felt damn awfull inside me le .
and this is what i get ? i wanted to come era happy de .
but most of the time , i'm always shagg nor dulan . did i ever get happy for 1 day ?
no ! always get shagg or things pop up . hais . i'm already damn stress up le .
and i wanna come era cause i wanna enjoy and smile . but this is what i get ?
a piece of fcuking shyt ? wtf is this ? cant i just be happy for 1 day ?
i really cant take the pressure anymore . i wanna burst le . i felt like dying .
i dont wanna stay in this world . as like SUCKS alot ! i mean it . hais .
i just hope , i can be happy with you guys , but i think , my saddness is more than laughter .
which i do not want , i want laughter and enjoyment more . hais .
i just dont know what to do . after the taiji , went with vanvan to find botak .
then stay there slack . each min i think of it , i feel like crying . but then .
i stop my tears from dropping . van ask me to cry out . if i felt better . but i dont want .
i dont wanna cry out . i wanna just keep it in my heart . and go home cry .
hais , just no one understand me , really . i hate myself , i hate my life .

anyway , sorry that i side him than side you . cause i got my reason .
cause he's just a young kid . thats why . and you all are abit over the limits .
that's why i choose to side him , and not you . i know its my mistake . to side him , but then .
i still gonna say i'm sorry , cause its my fault . hope you will accept this apology .
and i didnt mean to dao you . cause i dont wanna talk face to face . hais . that's why i choose to walk off from you when you ask me why i cry all this . i'm sorry , indeed very sorry .
its just that i really felt damn hurt when you say that sentence .
cause was like last time when i side B , you say that too , you keep ask , why i side him .
hais , i really dont know , i want peace , i dont wanna see you fight . that's why .
if you wanna dulan me , then go ahead , i cant do anything too .
but i still will say , sorry . that it . i really didnt mean to dao you or side him de ): sorry T.T