hais

well , here to post again . about the laughter just now and what i'm thinking now .
and was at fionn house , she's sleeping now . well i dont have the mood to sleep .
why ? cause i'm missing him right now . maybe later i will take a nap bahs .
hais , suddenly miss him damn lots now . ya , i did have some laughter just now .
cause antidote , absolute and fionn was on msn just now . and they make me laughs till siao .
well , guess that they are really a joker . if you are in their conversation , you will laughs too .
i swear it , cause to me , i already like like fcuk together with fionn . ==

TO ; (LSJ)♥
well , went to read someone blog , and i started to find out that he likes me . OMG .
hais , what have i done now ? another one who started to like me le . hais .
cause i really treat you too good ? or i give you misunderstand that i have feeling for you ?
well , everyday you came and read my blog , and you should know i'm waiting for someone .
hais , then why you must put your feeling in to me ? why cant you choose other girls ?
what's so good about me ? and what's the point on loving me ? i'm not to be a good gf .
i dont know that you will like me , i keep telling myself . you treat me as audi cpl only .
i didnt expect you to fall for me really . hais , maybe . being alone will be better . hais .
but still , i swear i wont break the ring and will last long to that . i weiwei promise de .
and lastly , please dont do stupid things again , i really hate people being like this , cant think properly , then do those kind of nonsense . and make yourself more worst , and be like that .
so please dont do this again . and no more sorry too . i really dont wanna hear about it le .
and if can , try to give up on me , now that now i wanna neglet you . is i really busy with things , that i gonna deal with . and not only me gonna deal with it . even my sweetheart and sister were in with me , and i know its the last chance for me , so i will be damn busy . so sorry . hais .
just to let you know first , in case you will think that i wanna avoid you . well , i'll not .
i will just purely treat you as a audi cpl . that's all , but try to forget abt me alright ? sorry D:

and i really starting to felt life is so meaningless to me le . somehow , somewhere .
i really felt like dying , and just perish off from this world . just end my life . painlessly .
hais , maybe i will feel more happier ? hais , i also dont know . i felt nothing worth it for me to be in this world . maybe cause you are gone ? or maybe cause i lost in everything ?
maybe 1 day , i will come to my sense bahs , but not now .
to me , now i will think that life is so meaningless . and love is like a game .
i really dont know how to trust love again , and i dont think i will .
but only to him , i will love him back . i promise . and to my ex bahs , the only special ex i have .
well , i just hope that they will end their r/s fast . AHHHHHH , i really cant stand it le .
i really cant stand them always in pantry hugging and kissing . OMG can .
hais , just hope that thay wont last long . and its the first time i curse people . not to last long .
well , i know i'm being bad , but wei le him , i will do anything for it . hais ,
i know i'm being stupid too . but then also bo bian , cause who ask me so stupid , go love him so much and so deep , till now , i go mad for him and do whatever for him , just cause of him .
hais , i'm just too stupid , indeed such a fools . and so is my sweetheart and sister .

well , tomorrow gonna meet my sweetheart and my sister . i mean later on . hmmm .
so i should go get some sleep now . if not later i gonna kp say i'm tired or what le .
hmmm , just hope that later the 3 of us wont be shagg bahs , and hope that we will stick together so close like now , no matter what happen alright ? sisters for life yeah ? ♥
sometimes i really wonders , what if either 1 of us patch back with him , will our closeness end like this ? sometimes i really thinks alot . but now , i wanna enjoy my life with you 2 . cause you 2 now are damn important to me uhh ? you all make me feel so wonderful . and we really havoc together . especially my sweetheart , thanks for being there for me , when i really wanna cry or when i've cry out . and talk to me . thanks alot . even though we both like the same guy .
but our friendship will never end just like this , we are gonna stand strong . alright ?
and to simin sister , well , today is the first day that we become gans yeah ? my sister .
thought i dont really know you well , and i can admit that i last time dont like you before .
but then now , we will be sister alright ? PBT lahs ! for the 3 of us (: love die you 2 ! ♥

and lastly , i do seriously love and willing to wait , but then dont test my patient .
cause i will do what i wont wish to do de stuff for you to see . if you want , can try me .
ya , i dont care you guy or what , or you want play shirt if i really go mad .
but still i'm trying to control myself now . and hanging on now . so dont test me alright ?
seriously , i do really love you alot . and i will wait for sat , sat , i shall talk out with you le .
i swear i will find out my guts and keep my shyness away and talk out with you .
cause i'm not gonna tolorate all this shyts le . and i gonna get the truth out from you .
at least i will feel better knowing the truth rather then i keep waiting with false hope . ♥