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shagg lahs sial .
today 7 plus come era . then slack awhile . then meet up with pathetic and my dearest .
then slack awhile . then went up audi .
then was playing with vanvan , pathetic , daryl and forgot who in my room le .
then play till damn sio after that . cause B told me about him and that girl thing .
WTF sial , hugging in the pantry , was like damn sio can . and damn shagg .
hais , was like i keep thinking that all this things are just false statement .
and that its not true . but then these 2 days when i came down , they keep telling me .
what the both of you doing inside the pantry . i was like damn shagg .
why must you do it in era , and let them see and let them tell me ? you know i really do feel like crying ? and so do pathetic too . hais . its not that we dont allow you to have girlfriend or what .
but cant you just do it in other place if the both of you wanna hug and kiss ?
want then bring her home lahs , and infront of B , you ask her to call you dear ? wtf .
hais , i was like damn fcuking shagg , do you ever think of how we felt ?
i give up everything just for you . and i get all this shyt . hais . just tell me what you want now .
tell me what to do . i'm just really damn fcuking lost and confused now .
do you ever thought of how we felt now ? cant you put yourself in our shoes ?
hais , sometimes i really thinking , do i still have the chance ? or i dont have it anymore .
everytime when i think of the past , or you , i really feel like crying .
i just hate to see you with other girls . its all girls feeling , cause its call jealousy .
hais , i just somehow , feel like doing things that i know i not suppose to do .
and only simin and pathetic know what is it . hais . i just fcuking hate to see the both of you like this , being so sweet together , really . i really just feel like crying hard out now .
cant you just tell me , what you wanna do ? or i shall wait till 1 week later , which is next sat .
then i will ask you , i cant tolorate it anymore . althought i'm already 18 , but then .
i'm damn weak in relationship . that time you jio me , i already put my whole feeling for you .
and now , this is how you treat me ? i really hope to last with you . so i put in all my feeling .
but then , you break with me , cause you tell me you still cant forget pathetic , but i give you time . but then now ? you choose to stead with another girl , and another .
this is the real reason that you break with me or ? or that time you only crush for me .
and not true love ? hais , you should be old enough to think le , really .
9 out of 10 people tell me , her face like so buang and dog face all this . but i think she's okay .
people keep say that why you will choose this kind of person . you pajia0 or ? i know you dont mind looks de girl . but then , why you keep change gf ? cant you be abit more tiong xim ?
and everytime i cry , why must you suddenly pop out . and ask me why i cry . do you still even care ? about me ? or its just a friend that you care for ? so many people say that maybe you still got feeling for me , that's why i choose to wait . and not giving up . i went through so much pain .
while you ? happy playing here , and i gonna take those nonsense . hais .
why are you so changed now ? ya i know i also did change , but then . you change more .
last time you disiao me , you know your limit , but now ? you dont . why ?
and now you are more fierce towards me , why ? cause you want me to give up ?
hais , i really dont know what you want , seriously . cant you tell me , what you want boy ?
hais , or do i even had that chance ? can you just tell me everything now ? before i get hurt more ? and cry so much ? if i know all this will happen , i rather die first . than to accept all this shyt . i rather not step in this picture and to cry and get hurt so much .
sometimes , i really feel like dying , hais . you just dont know how i feel now . why ?
and for that girl , dont push me too far , i really do have limits , and its gonna reach the limit soon . i dont care he will side you or not , but then i still will explode if my limit reaches the top .
so dont push me too far . and i shall give a warning first . whether the both of you read my blog , i still will post it out . and for the boy , you wanna help her , then i got nothing much to say .
cause all this are from the bottom of my heart . and its true that what i have say .

i really love you too much le .
till now i really get too much hurt .
i just hope really somehow i can be back with you .
but i know its impossible , and i dont know i should give up not .
people telling me to fight for it . and i dont think i will win .
but still , after this week , i will ask for it .
but i know i will get reject . and i'm just asking for is .
dont be so cold towards me , cause i just felt so hurt .
treat me better can ? hais , i just seriously love you alot boy ):