sorry

this post is to B didi ;
sorry di , i cant say i wanna go down .
even thought i really feel like going down , but then i wont , i gonna control myself .
i cant let it be a xi guan to me . that i have to go down everyday .
and era really is a sad place for me . no matter what i do there . what happen ,
all are still sad memories . and always there is things that always making me pissed .
hais , i really had enough of everything le . i know i dont feel like mia .
but then i got to . i dont wanna had this kind of life anymore , you want , you come find me .
if not , i wont step out to era . nor other place . just stay at home .
hais , sorry di . not that i wont miss era , i still will . i will wonder how are you guys .
are you all safe , or are you guys in trouble . scare that you wont eat .
scare that van dulan cause of stuff or stress . all this i still care much . and one more thing .
this you should know . but i wont say out . so wanna meet me , tell me in msn .
i will always be online de (: dont worry . anything , can also call me and let me know .
so di dont sad le alright ? its not like i will be gone for long , or not coming back . hais .
and i know friday you leaving le . going work . but still . i wont come down era .
you know my character de . no means no . i must be very determine in doing this . hais .
so better take good care of yourself alright ? jie love you too uhh (: <3>

and this post is for my audi cpl ;
this is what you say de alright ? wont wanna talk to me anymore . ok (:
i will grant your wish . so better be happy . cause i'm granting your wish now (:
and obvious that i dont wanna clear any misunderstanding up .
what misunderstanding we had ? you say lorr . is there any misunderstanding not .
i dont think so too . if its a misunderstanding . then why need talk to ken . ask for help ?
then go ahead . go tell the whole era , whole audi . that i did this . GO AHEAD !
i dont need any sympathy/pity or what ever . or you to give in to me .
cause i know i didnt did anything wrong . ya , maybe its that little wrong .
but what's the big fuzz over it ? whole audi people also like this . ==
unless you are my bf lahs , then i got nothing to say . but you are not . you are just my audi cpl .
and even if its my real life . i wont do such things also . cause i know my limits .
and i cpl someone that you know also . so what else you want ? fine with it then .
now i also mai talk much . sometimes your thinking really is quite childish . i gonna say everything out , so that i feel more better . hmmm , ya , and thats it .
sometimes your thinking is quite childish , thats why whatever you do . i will get pissed .
you are 16 , not 3 == so you got a big brain to think . so think lahs .
in those things . even before you say or do . think first . zzz . dont tell me you still dont know how to think ? when you are already 16 == and the way you talk . i dont know how to say too .
and i can say , i really cant talk to you face to face . cause i know you like me .
thats why i always can only talk to you in msn , sms , or blog nia .
so you know why i never talk to you face to face before ? ya , you dont need to understand me .
cause no one seems to understand me too . cause like i say le . i'm a very random person .
and we always quarrel . so does it have the needs for you to understand me ? no need (:
in era , no people will understand me well . i can confirm . cause i really too random le .
ya , i may be happy go lucky those kind , i may be good and kind hearted .
but seems like you all trying to take it for granted ? cause i dont show my temper .
or my attitude ? thats why you all trying to climb on my head ? well then you all are wrong .
now i've change , then try to climb over my head lorr . try . i'm not the friendly , cheerful weiwei you all know le . not the old weiwei le . i will never change back . i swear .
too friendly makes you all test my patience more right . good . then now , dont blame that i have change so much . cause is you all force me to de . alright ? (: i also dont wanna post so much le .
cause yours is because you say dont wanna talk to me anymore . ok . i will de (:
and lastly , just give up on me . if you dont , then i will be more sarcastic on my words . and maybe you will give up uhh ? laughs ! (:

everytime when i close my eyes .
the first one i think or or saw will be you .
i never knew my feelings for you are so deep .
till now that i really cant forget .
the moment when you held my hands ,
the moment when you kiss my lips ,
the moment you hug me so tightly .
i wish time could stop . but then i know it wont happen .
when i think of the past , my heart sank .
i really fell in love too much le .
i cry for a few times . but then , i still cant forget .
the scar in my heart , i doubt it will heal . i wont trust in love again .
for i have been hurt for all the while . i really have enough le . T.T
i really still love you lots . and still been thinking of you all the while .
but would you even care ? hais . <3>