hais

okay , i came here to post what i feel like saying .
well . some stuff i wont say , the part i will say is x.ken they all .
the other stuff , i dont have to say .

well , why am i so shagg today and yesterday ?
its like i dont know what you all are thinking . or doing .
its like , have you all ever think , if you all get hurt ,
what will i think ? i will also worried for you guys .
ya , cause i do really treat you all as a friend . a best close friend .
and now , some of you say wanna mia , if not say wanted .
i really dont know what to say or do now .
like what i told x.ken , i think i rather solo and be independent .
i rather mia from you all . and maybe i wont shagg so much . ya . if i mia , i know ken will shagg , for the rest , i dont know . whether you all really do treat me as a very good friend not .
cause i think sometimes you all are quite random .
i know you guys are stress too . and somehow you all will wanna mia.
but then i also the same . and i got so much things to stress about .
and why cant i just mia ? hais . i also dont know .
if you all get pissed with what i type . then i'm sorry .
its just what i feel like typing out from the bottom of my heart . hais , i just somehow . dont know what to say now . lost of words . when just now x.ken talk to me so many things , i really felt damn shagg . and just feel like dropping my tears le . and i told x.ken to stop it .
hais , really . i dont know why i care for you all so much ,
once you all got taiji or fights , i will be damn worried about you all .
but then i just didnt show out to you all . hais , i just dont know how to express my feelings out . to let you all know how worried i'm , but then i myself know can already .
i just hope that things were like last time , when we just know each other . when some people are not meant to come era . and no more much troubles . and just enjoy those laughter together . and havoc around . where are those past time that we spend together ? where are those laughter from you guys ? hais , i just know those stuff might not happen , cause all are starting to walking different ways .
now i really dont care much about some stuff and try to meet you guys up . but then i think that i shouldnt le bahs , and maybe after sunday , i shall stay at home .
you all want meet then call me bahs . hais , i just dont know how to say too . some how i still got lots of stuff that i wanted to say , but then i just cant say out . hais .
just hope you guys wont get into any troubles anymore . hais .
and take great care bahs . i have nothing much to say le . T.T shagg die me .
and B didi , hope that you really did enjoy with them alot alright ? if you are shagg , still got me . i'm still here alright ? so cheer up more often , and i will be happy le .
thought sometimes you know i will dulan , cause of some stuff . but then after awhile . i will be okay , just hope you wont betray me . thats all . cause i just cant take it anymore .

i just dont know what to say too .
seems like you are enjoying much now .
and you also did talk back to me , well .
i'm glad enough already , and i dont wish to ask for more .
cause i know i cant go over the line . and last long too .
this is the max that i can have . hais .
everytime when i think of you , and those stress .
i just really feel like crying out .
i just kept those tears from rolling down . cause i must be strong .
hais , but how long can i take it ? i also dont know .
i just hope things are like last time . T.T

i just kept my tears from rolling down ,
how long can i stand strong ? i dont know D: