this is my life .

hais , i been thinking for the whole night . why is my life so miserable ? why is everything i do is wrong ? and nothing much go right ? am i a failure ? i think i'm . why can people stay happily in their life . what they want , they will have it . why can i have that kind of life too ? but to suffer so much . zxczxc . life is really so unfair . really . how i wish i'm not borned in this world . then i wont have to suffer so much or suffer everyday . i really hate it can ! hais . i know sometimes i may be a failure in life . and maybe make alot people hates me , or what . if you all really think so . just say bahs . at least i know you guys hate me or what . and i will feel better . well . sometimes , i just wish i can perish in the world . and i can dont need to stress or shagg so much , at least it will be more better , hais . i'm now in the process of breaking down already , and i suffer much more than ever . i become more attitude , more guailan , and many more . i just damn pissed with myself now . damn sio myself . hais , i also dont know why . maybe i need time to cool myself down bahs . i really jus wanna mia from everything now .
and sorry B didi , i cant be there for you today . cause i cant go out . plus i dont have the mood too . sorry . try to cheer up alright ? you will last with your bf de . dont worry (: and dont cut yourself le please ! hais . if you insist , then i got nothing much to say le . hais .
and to xiang didi , cheer up bahs , your parents might just say out of anger only . maybe they dont really mean it lehs ? relac and smile alright ? dont cry le . hais .

this 2 define of life , i believe its quite true . well . i did try those things that i should . and now i'm on the process of falling , so i will be happy enough le . cause at least it tried (: anyway all those friends of mine , dont think so much , i'm still okay . so dont worry . especially sotplug laopo . i'm still okay alright . dont worry or think so much (: loves .