shagg sial

ok , back to posting . just reach home not long . and i shall have a short post bahs . cause not really in the mood to blog too .

well . wake up at 7 plus in the night . then watch television . then slack awhile . and because i lazy to get out from my house . but then xab , fel and the rest are waiting for me . so go bathe , then bus down to era . and ya , reach there , saw alot of people . like fel , bun , yirong , xab , vance , hao , shawn , ford . vance gina ? alot alot more . then after that , play audi . and then slack around till 4 plus ? start going drink too . was actually drinking at the pantry , but then the boss came , then scold us . cause maybe he dont like it . so after that , went to back alley to drink . and then drink dao 6 plus ? then lots of people are drunk , cause we drink corden blue . i think its like this spell . LOL ! then after that , the era boss came , and then kan shawn i think . dont know why too . shall not talk so much about it . skip skip * ;x then after that , went back era . and then start to audi , as fel and vance going lp . then on com , then tag fam points too . and ya , after that , play awhile till 8 plus . then bus home , then some incident happen when i wanna go back . play with x.ken . and ya , after that , fell down and hit my head on the road . was like so damn pain . and ya . i cried . D: hais . then now my whole head was like so pain , but maybe after a while . i will be okay . i guess . then after that , thought my wallet lost . call fel up and she say she doesnt have the wallet . almost cry again . went up era . ask drea , her bag also dont have . wtf . my tears almost drop out sial . cause my ic and alot things inside . and ya , went out to ask the boss . and he pass me back . was soooo lucky uhh ? heng sial . then took bus 40 back with emodan darling . and then walk home . before coming back . brought a packet of bee hoon home for my aunt . (: so good of me ehs ;x hahahas . and now ya , not really in the mood but then i still try to smile . hais . i dont wanna post le bahs . take care readers .

sometimes i really wonders . i just have the urge to mia from this group . i just dont know why ? maybe i really need a break for myself ? i dont know how long can i survive in this group . dont know when i will leave this group . but i got a feeling i will leave soon . real soon . i just dont like this feeling . but i really hope to give myself a break and stay at home . hais . i just wanna be . . . . . alone for the period of time . maybe after this week ? i will mia bahs . i still dont know . deciding still . hais . cause too much things has happened . and i really dont like this feeling . how i wish i could cry out loudly . how i wish i can dont live in this world . how i wish i can be happy everyday . and no sadness ? how i wish , soo much things that how i wish . why ? just why i cant get the things i want ? and it always happen on the things i dont want it to suppose to happen . and i'm just only worried about this group . hais . all i just wish is , i could just die . why didnt i die on when i hit my head against the floor ? hais . its so horrible inside me . that no one will understand . i just feel like . . . . tearing myself up . hais . maybe after tomorrow i wont contact anyone already . as my line get cut off . hais . it better be good . even if i cant bear to give up this group . but i sure i can . just wait for tomorrow . the line once cut off . i might stop contacting everyone . including my cloestest one . all i wish now . is for all to be happy and united as one . no matter what happen or what it takes . maybe i may be nothing in this group . but to me . it mreans alot to me . and its real . shag die .. .