sigh ):

anyway , before i blog , happy birthday to samuel korkor (: may your wish all come true alright ?! (: and you didnt reply my text when i send you happy birthday . so dao !

alright , what i wanna say , thing are getting out of hands . and it seems that everything i do . its a mistake . and maybe i shouldnt complain stuff out , even if i have to tolerate , i think i must just keep my mouth shut . not gonna complain stuff anymore , even if i get pissed . gonna just mia everyone or everything , even to neglect my blog and facebook soon . cause whatever i post . its like so useless . and even if i post out . things will get wrong again . so ya , i will just roughly go through stuff . and that's it . friends comes and goes . which are the real friends of yours ? which are not ? who is the one using you . and who are not ? you simply wont know . just cause of small problems , break ties all this ? did you have enough than i do ? or what ? i really have enough of all this shyts man . i thought going back era , will make me better . or i might learn more things . but then , not that true . its like , i have lost another friend . cause of a fcuking SMALL problem . wtf is going wrong here man ? gosh gosh gosh . i just cant simply understand it man . fine . so be it man . i'm tired of all this already , so i dont wish to care anymore . but still you know i will still treat you as a very good friend of mine . that's all i've to say man . sigh .

sometimes , changing to be good . its still not that good . nor neither you can change back as fast as you can . what is needed for us is time , and the company that you hang out with , i'm thinking of getting to be good . back to study and work . its time to grow up now . and its still not too late for me to change back and to study all this . i've to learn this is because of my future . not cause i scare or what . now without money = die . so what's the point of being a gangster ? not that gangster are not good . but it depends . you also have to grow up . not to find trouble . but to work . i finally understand all this stuff . and i wont repeat my mistake again . though i can have fun , but then , i will have more fun without anyone (: just some good friends of mine . and its enough . i'm still in the process of changing . so anyone who is not happy with me , jolly well fcuk off then (: cause i dont entertain lame stuff or childish acts :D

i'm happy with the life i'm now . but sometimes , it really sucks to the core . 55% to me , is life sucks . 45% is that i'm happy with it now (: at least i'm more happy with the way i'm now . so not that bad . and thanks adeline , era peeps . for staying by my side . accompany me in era . nor ton . thanks to have those good friend like you all [era peeps] (: and thanks sweetheart too . for being there too . when i need a listening ear (: love you man ! see you tomorrow alright ? (: