hais

well , you guys keep say i change . ya . i know my attitude change .
and i started to become more emo and alone this few days .
but what makes me change so much ?
i believe is not i change . its because i have too much stress to handle .
and i cant take it anymore . that's why my attitude change to be like this .
i really cant take anymore stress le . really . i had enough of life . everything !
the more stress i have , the more attitude i will be . even cheeho also says so .
hais , maybe its because you all dont really know me well . cause i'm too random ?
and i gonna think of so much things . ya . i think i should learn how to slowly solve and let go .
well . i really had enough le . i really somehow feel like staying at home . and just be alone .
so what if i'm alone . it might be better (: and i wont anyhow kan/kp people mahs .
more good right ? and will even people cares ? if i went missing or what ? i doubt so .
i have lost trust in every thing . every single friends too . only those who are close to me .
and i know that they are really a good friend to me . cheeho will be the 1st (:
but then , only some will cares . really . i know it myself too . maybe soon i will just .
just mia from everything , run away and hide everything . maybe the day will come soon .
cause more and more things started to happen . fam stuff . audi stuff . friends and r/s . family .
i really had enough le D: hais . who can save me from this miserable life ?! AHHHH !
ya , now a days , those i can really talk to is cheeho and vanvan . i just dont know who else .
that i can talk to now . only these 2 , i've talk to yesterday . and B . hais .
somehow , someday , i'm sure , i will be gone for a moment . till time heals everything ,
then i will come back . hais . sorry . to all that i've give attitude to . sorry D:

enough of all this le . hais . cause when ever i talk about those stress , i just feel like crying le .
hais , so ya , post about later stuff . well . gonna meet vanvan later .
and ya , we gonna go watch harry potter today . all promise me le hors . mai bluff wo D:
whose going ehs ? let me think , vanvan , xiaoboy that group . quinn , nigel , lickyou and milkteh .
well . so many people going uhh (: hahahas , well . i gonna enjoy life now . for these period of time , spend my time with them as long as i can . till i want to mia , then at least i still remember those happiness i had with my dearest , era people , van they all . ya . thats all bahs .

how i wish time can turn back .
to the past when i didnt even step in the picture .
cause now . i'm feeling so terrible .
i just somehow wish there's someone who can pull me up .
and stand strong . i just cant stand strong anymore .
i'm gonna fall any moments . i cant take it anymore .
i'm just putting a fake smile for everyone to see .
but then inside me . its so horrible . no one can understand me .
i really feel like crying somehow . sometimes . just let me die bahs T.T
cause i really had enough le . i'm just so sorry , that i step in the picture .
and sometimes , i just really wanna say good bye . but i just cant do so .
i'm just torturing myself . by doing those stuff , which is foolish . hais .
fcuk fade . really . all this love stuff , its driving me crazy . hais .
people think that if fade brought the both of them together , then must love each other .
but then i dont think so . fcuk it . fcuk fade . trust no love anymore . fcuk love too !