hmmm

well . i know its my mistake to get angry with you .
when you are not in the wrong . but you didnt even tell me that you are in the hospital .
if i know you are there , i wont even get angry with you .
i know now adays , my mood are not very good . i know i changed alot too .
as in my attitude and character . i also dont know why .
i just know . my temper getting more worst . cause i'm having a mood swing .
i dont know when this mood swing will go off . but i know . it will stay long .
or maybe its my 2nd character . that over whelm me . i also dont know .
i just hope that the old me will come back soon . i'm sorry if i really give lots of attitude .
but then its not what i wanted too . lots of people also told me that i've changed .
well . sorry guys too . i really dont mean it . hais , really maybe my 2nd character .
that have came out . cause i've suffer too much stress ? those stress that i dont even know how to say out too . nor discribe . hais . but then i will try to change back .
maybe the devil gonna over take me . nor whatever shyt . but then still a sorry to tell to all .
so if i really give you guys attitude , forgive me please . cause i really didnt mean to .
hais . only 2 person know why i change . maybe i'm too easily influence ? hais .
i tents to be alone for this few days . doing things alone too . hais .
why is it so ? really make me feel so ... fcuk up . hais . seriously .
lots of people are telling me that i've changed . i changed alot . hais . and i like to be alone .
for this few days . being alone to do things , play audi alone . and many more .
maybe i'm starting to be emo ? nor ? i also dont feel like sms-ing . nor go out .
i dont know why is it so ? maybe i'm sick and tired le ? hais . i really somehow . wish to die .
ahhhhh ! sorry guys anyway D: just forgive me if i make you guys pissed !

and to my audi cpl . well . i cant blame you . i've fault too .
i shouldnt get angry with you . without knowing the rights . i'm sorry .
and sorry for giving you attitude all along . and you tolorating all my attitude .
so whatever things you want just tell me . nor what happen . just tell me .
dont hide anything from me . cause i will get more pissed . alright ?
and you do stand alittle in my heart . cause you are my audi cpl .
i already say this about 4 times le . so stop thinking that you are not important .
i know you are jealous at times . but then its good that you know your limits .
ya , maybe its an audi cpl to me . but to you . it means more . but then , i just hope you can give up on me . cause i'm not that great after all . hais . i'm just useless ?
ya , sometimes the things that you do , might be childish . well .
if you can change it . will be better . you are a grown up now . you know how to think .
right ? i suppose you know how to think more better yeah ?
and i doesnt got the right to tell you to change or not . its up to you .
ya , and actions speaks louder than words . and try not to stress urself up .
and cheer up more . what for make urself so miserable ? cheer up bahs .
and i know that you been wanting to make me smile . i know you dont want me to stress .
but then , you take good care of yourself . treasure yourself and love yourself .
i will be glad enough already . i dont request much from you . just you to be more better .
and get a good life . thats all alright ? anything , just tell me . those that are suppose to tell .
dont hide anything from me . and let others tell me . or i ownself find out .
then i dulan , then more not good right ?
i really dont know what to post le . and thanks for trying to make me smile all the time .
but then you still cant . i know you might be sad . but then , i really cant force myself to smile .
so sorry . just make sure that you have good life and take good care of yourself , can le .
alright ? this is what i want . nothing much le . rest well bahs . and we shall jys for next compy .
and the ring , dont need choing le bahs . forget it . its up to you whether you want choing not .
nothing much to post le . thats all le bahs . i dont wanna play com le . off liaos . byesbyes !