hais

well , back to bloggie .
just wake up not long , and ya , so came to blog first before i go out .
what happen this few days uhh ? well . dont really remember much .
only remember yesterday my audi lp (: and now i got my aster ring .
hahahas ! yeah , finally uhh ? and its my first time tagging so long hour of hearts ==
but then , solo tag also quite fun .
yesterday i also realise , lots of people are very random , they are so easily attitude .
hais , i also dont know why . so many people attitude me can . like what ever fcuk it do is wrong .
well , so be it bahs . like i say , i will soon be coming era less often le .
and maybe my life will be better (: me at era or not also never mind de .
sooner or later , all those people there will soon forget me . cause i'm not that important .
so what for i stay there ehs ? at there , i'm so noisy , kpkb here and there .
making people pissed off with what ever shyt i've done . and even people say my attitude change . so well . so be it bahs . you guys can say what ever you want . but then i know myself that i didnt change can le . cause you guys might not know me well then .
ya , he also did say i change , maybe its for the sake of saying so that i can just give up .
or he can say that cause he might not wanna get back together . so forget it .
like i say , force also wont have any happiness . so i shall just learn to walk off now .
but then , i also dont know should i or not . well . take a step at a time bahs . and see how it goes .
yesterday had some chat with B didi , and ya , talk alot of stuff . and i realise how much i had enough of everything . even now , i dont feel like going era . i rather stay at home
because B cut himself again and eat 10 panadols , thats why i'm going down . hais .
i really getting sick and tired of life , getting sick of so many childish stuff that happen .
sick and tired of all those fcukings problems le . hais . somehow , i rather choose to die .
seriously . hais , i get really very enough of it le . even if i did so much things , also useless .
hais , i just wish my wishes will come true . is there any fairy godmothers ? hais .
well , enough of all this le . i really dont know what to post . maybe i also wont wanna post much le . cause everything seems so meaningless . byebye .

well , you are the reason why i stand strong ,
you are the reason why i didnt fall so easily .
i did so much things , but then , you still choose to let it go .
why is it so ? do you know how much it hurts inside me ?
do you even know how much my love for you is ?
do you even know how i feel now ? you dont !
can you tell me what are you thinking now ? and what you want ?
its really hell torturing ! i dont like it this way . i try to put a fake smile all the time .
but inside me , i just feel like dying . i just hope what i done , will be worth it .
and i just love you still . hais <3>