Day 4...

Hmm, I'm back to blog. Before I head to sleep. As I'm working 10 tomorrow & there are lots of paper work that I've not done. But well, I would rather blog than to do those work.

I'm quite happy that you apps me today. But then it's not what I wanna see. Because you asked me when I wanna take back my stuff. & ya I got so upset & I've got a bad sour feeling all the way. So I use dx name & say friday I'll go over. Sigh, I know I shouldn't have said this. But then, I was so lost.. Anyway, me & him are just brother & sister. There's no way for us. & all I want was just you. That's all. How could I ever give up a rs so fast when I loved you so much? Silly boy.. And each day, I'm so worried about you. Whether you're doing good not. & did you breach your probation or go school everyday. I couldn't concentrate on work but just to keep looking at my phone to check your last log in time at whatsapp. Sigh.. I've a hard time passing this few days..

Well, & just now you asked me if we have a chance to patch up not. I got so surprise. But I'm afraid that you might ask me to give up on you or say those harsh words on me again ): cause I couldn't take anything now. Whatever you say means a lot to me... I just wish you could understand how I feel now. I wish to talk to you, like how we first started. Well, I guess it will never happen again. Because my confident were all gone.. & when I say I love you, I mean it. Not to sweet talk only. But it's true.. Sigh. Shall head to bed now and await for your reply... Good night silly. <3