Time Flies.

Hey. I just public my blog again. And also, i've came back to blog! Well, i've just got onto a new relationship now. And i guess it's time for me to let go of 27th now. I do hope my current one wont be like 'b'. Because that's how i treat 'b' last time when i couldn't forget too. it's really over for the both of us already. And i know it... forget it. You and i, are 2 different people. & this is the facts. memories maintain as memories. You move on with yours, I move on with mine. i don't wish to talk/think about you. good luck with your girl.

2ndly, i didn't even wanna try to use my current boyfriend to gek you. because i find it pointless. if i want, i will already have brought my siamkia over instead. Why will i wanna break people hearts. LOL. If you like to listen to others and say me, then go ahead. because i asked lionel if 'he got see me anot? wah rabak, he got say things is it'. if i wanna gek you, i wont bother to hide one corner, and ask you got say me is it. JOKE. Whatever it is, since its over already, then so be it. You happily enjoy with your yuri can already :) 

With my current boyfriend, i'm gonna learn from my mistake and start a good relationship with him. That's all i can do now. i hope he wont be like him thou, just because i don't treat good at first. Then things change after i treat him good. I know my boyfriend is a sweetie. And everyone asking me to be good to him too and get well in this relationship. And i know i will and i've to. Because i can see he really treat me well and loves me a lot! Guess i've already given him attitude for 2 times already >.< but still, he didn't utter anything :* Christmas is coming, so is new year too. this month and year month i will be so busy. Cousin, friends wedding. Birthday, chalets coming up. But most importantly, i'm going with baby, brother and sister to USS on the 11 dec! hehehe. 

I will try my best to forget you, 'b'.

& i will love my current boyfriend just like how i used to love you.

I hope, you will learn to grow up, have a mature thinking instead, 24 soon, you should know how to think already. No time for you to play and enjoy already. Life is now about money. 

I still will pray for you to start changing. Even know i know it will take like forever. LOL. From we break till now, everyday i've been praying for you. no matter day or night. I just hope you will be sensible more. Don't let your parents worried for you too. Well, good bye 27th ^^

The end, 27th

Well, I guess I've to accept it. That this is really the end of us. I guess it's best for us too. You can do what you want, get your freedom also. While I got Mine too. 19Months of rs ended just like this. Maybe you really had enough of me. But I can say is I haven't had enough of you still. My tolerance level maybe higher than yours I guess.

This time, I'm moving on already. Lazy to stand at the Same place waiting for you to be back. Lazy to stalk you everywhere and end up getting hurt by myself. I guess the Next guy who I be with would count himself lucky. Because each rs. I get better. Time won't wait for you. So yeah.

I'm feeling so lethargic right now. I don't know Why either. Shall end here While I do finish the 19month gift for you (: and That's When I'll move on in life.

27/12/2011

Well, I guess I've a wonderful boyfriend. Just that his flaws are more than his good points. Just wanna rant things here. And yeah maybe this is a better place to rant at since it's already been private. Oh ya, talking about my boyfriend. Well, he's quite sweet. But then, sometimes I really wish he have half of what jk have. Which is to be much more sweeter, much more caring, & showing me more attention instead of his friends.

This few months, things isn't going very well. Know why? Because I felt being neglected. I felt so insecure. He's giving me those cold message with those one words ( eg: okok, don't know, Orh, tired. ) which I don't know how to explain. And now. He's putting brother and friends so importantly. Last time, he's so much sweeter. Like how pooh love honeys! ): it's really hurting to see him change till like this. Almost every night, I've to cry myself to sleep. Yeah, I admit I hate it when he doesn't spend his free time with me. Like going out to walk, watching a movie, going out for a dinner and afterwards plan. It's like... I wish I've a rs like how others had. Talking and cuddling with each other. And also. Try not to find quarrel. I just want a loving relationship. Whereby I can tell all my secrets to, and also feel safe being together with him. Being able to feel the love and secure by him when he start wooing me from the start. I really do miss that........

I really wish I could motivate him with my actions, words and feeling. But, after so much tries, he just don't wanna do anything about it. Everyday gamble, meet other friends. Getting into problems. Why can't he put half of the attention to me? When I really wanna last this rs and get stable down. It's really so hurting. Which I'm really lost now. Sigh..

I wish whichever god who've see this, can listen to my prayers. I really mean him good. And want him to just work hard for himself. And not getting into trouble, or just continue his life like this on mj, brother, drinking and neglecting me... I'm sorry for the past i'd treated you. But I'm trying to do what I'm suppose to now. I'm sorry for always initiating the break up. But then the trust is not there already. I'm sorry for making a fuss out of small matter but I really wants you to understand the situation and each of us can move a step back to resolve things. I'm really sorry that I couldn't be the perfect girl you want and I can't be a good girlfriend. But I'm trying real hard to be one already... I'm really sorry..

His the one ^.^

Hey hey hey! It's been so long since I've blog! Well and now I'm back to blogging. Because I'm so bored at the shop. HAHAHAHA! Alright. Let's start now. It's the 5th of dec now. 20 more days to christmas. Cant wait for it!! Hehehe. 22 more days to me and boyf 1 year anni. It's been so long alr. And time flies. 1 year being together. And going thru those up and downs. Happy moments and sad times. Breaking up and getting back together again. Because we just love each other.

Anyway, I think my boyf is such a cutie, because he always do silly stuff and make me laugh much. Aww. <3 thanks silly Boyf of mine, for tolerating my attitude, for being there for me at times only, and helping me when I do not have enough cash. Let's work hard for our future k! (:

Ahhhh, I'm so bored at work now, and I'm also feeling so grumpy! Because I'm having cramps and I'm tired! ): no one came in to buy stuff!! Sad. Well I hope sales will be good later on! Haha. Today only got $80 sales. Damn! Commission less than 10 sia. Angryyyy! Okay I shall head back to twitter instead of blogging. So lazy too >.< bye all!

Boyf, Once again, thank you for everything. Cant wait for Christmas and our 1 year (: love you!

Day 17..

Well, today is our 5th month anniversary.. And yet now we're like this. I really do hope things will be better for us soon. I don't know if you're giving up now or what. But then, I give myself 20 days (: I'll do a sketch book, with 20 pages. If you're still like this, I give up. Ive no confident in myself already. Even though I ask you to boast your confident up. But then I don't know if you'll or not...

I don't know if are giving me up or not. But I wish you won't give up so easily. You're the 2nd guy that I did so much things for. Even a sketch book which I don't know what I wanna write or do. But then I'll still pass this book to you (: within the 20 days. I hope things will get better.. Like I say to you yesterday. If you wanna salvage this rs. What must you do? Gain back my trust for you right? Do what you've to. Be initiative instead of me texting you first. Cause I won't always be the one to text you first. I can just don't bother about my phone or text you. But I still did. Well, am gonna go home early and plan what I wanna do on this sketch book (:

I hope you won't give up things so easily, act and toughen up to be a man. Cause you ain't young anymore. Study hard & work hard. Time to stable down in life already (: